Lost Soul

Confessions Part-1

NEW YORK

AVENGERS TOWER

A WEEK AFTER SPIDER-MAN'S 'DEATH'

There was an unusual silence in the living room of the tower. Jessica could be seen staring at nothing, a half-empty bottle of vodka. She heard some footsteps coming near her but didn't mind them. She saw someone sitting beside her from the corner of her eyes.

" Hey Jessica," said Jennifer softly, " You don't need to drink heavily. You have been drinking for the last six days"

" Let -- Let her drink" slurred a voice " it's a better.......good medicine to forget"

Jennifer turned and saw Carol drunk and sprawled on the floor with multiple empty bottles of alcohol beside her.

Jennifer glared at her.

" Have you emptied all these bottles by yourself, Carol? I thought you are not an alcoholic now?" asked Jennifer harshly.

" Who cured my alcohol--ho....ho" slurred Carol heavily.

" alcoholism " helped Jennifer while rubbing her temples.

" Yeah that! " exclaimed Carol and continued " has left me, and by the way, I was not the only one, that was her" she pointed her thumb at someone sitting stoically and glaring at nothing.

" Natasha? You too, why the hell are you drinking? " asked Jennifer incredulously. She can understand Jessica and somewhat Carol drinking, but Natasha. She never thought Natasha will be mourning for spider-man. She was always stoic and indifferent towards him. She thought Natasha disliked Spider-man, so she was confused seeing Natasha drinking and mourning for him.

" I never moved on from him," said Natasha suddenly.

" huh?" said Jennifer unintelligibly.

" I should have accepted Nancy" she whispered then her mood changed, she smashed the bottle in her hand, hard on the floor and shouted.

" I FUCKING SHOULD HAVE NEVER LEFT HIM "

" CALM DOWN NATASHA!, YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE " shouted back Carol.

" HOW CAN I FUCKING CALM DOWN? " she shouted breathing heavily.

It was strange to see Natasha of all people screaming and shouting, above all else for Spider-man.

"Calm down you both, we all are mourning for losing a hero even if he wasn't in big leagues, but we can't be depressing over him," said Jennifer but she only received a fierce glare from the other three.

" I tried to replace him with his fucking friend, Matt, oh god! I'm worse than that cat-bitch. That cat only kissed, I fucking slept with him and had a relationship with him--" said Natasha but was interrupted by Jennifer.

" Hey, it's not your far"

" LET ME FUCKING CONTINUE " snapped Natasha angrily.

" ok--"

" So where was I, yes!, I fucking dated Barnes too, I compared both of them to Spider-man. He has set the bar too high for other guys to measure up to him. I should have stayed with him. His heart, his soul and everything else was so big"
ranted Natasha.

" I know what you are talking about," Jessica said suddenly.

" huh? How do you know that? " asked Carol while sitting up.

" I drugged him with my pheromones and had fucked him," said Jessica with some regret.

" YOU WHAT?!!" shouted the other three.