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Chapter 37

As we pulled up to the lake, I unbuckled my seat belt, and got out of the car.
"The last thing he said to me was "I'm sorry for hurting you." And then he left, and he hasn't talked to me since." I sigh, wind sipping at my hair.

"I know, I'm sorry sweetie he's just... Confusing sometimes, I'm sure he'll come back around sooner or later, don't worry your pretty little head about it." She explains as we lay down in the grass. I just stare up at the clouds, remembering the day me and Mathew laid in the grass and pointed out shapes in the sky.

"You still love him, don't you?" She asks knowingly and a tear drops down the side of my face, and I close my eyes.

"Don't judge me.. He's the best thing I've ever had." I cry and she rips me up off the ground into a hug.

Sobs rack my body as I cry into her shoulder, as she embraces me like the sister I always wish I'd had. "I'm bit judging you sweetie I get where your coming from. Please don't cry for him though, he messes this up himself, not you." She says assuringly and I sniffle as I pull away from her.

"I know I'm just.. I just miss him so much." I say wiping the speared cry/ make up smudge off my face.

"He misses you too, he's just going through a lot, he'll come back when he's ready." She assures and I hug her once more, thanking her for being so understanding.

Our hug was interrupted by her iPhone buzzing and Mikes name popping onto the screen. She answered and put it on speaker. "Heyyyyyyyyy Tracy you gotta come hang at this party! It's sick!!" He yells into the phone slurring from alcohol overload.

"Mike are you already drunk? It's only three in the afternoon!" She laughs and I join in, this is the light hearted humor I cherish.

"Heyyy it's five o'clock somewhere baby." He says and I know Shane would kill him if he heard him speaking like that. "Anyway are yall coming?!" He asks and she looks over to me for advice and I nod.

"Yeah we're coming." So she gets the details for the where the party's at and we jump back in the car heading down to the flat.

We arrive at a house that looks completely barren and abandoned. "Are you sure this is it?" I ask and she shrugs.

"We'll never know till we go in." She says and I walk with her up the mahogany steps. We open the door and are both blasted with a, "SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And I almost scream from the shock. I thank everyone and hug anyone in sight.

We played a bunch of games like foot ball and poker and too hot, then Mike and I decided on getting everyone to play hide and seek in the dark.

We made Shane and Shawn be the seekers while everyone else hid. I made my way through the rickety house and settled under the stairs (like where Harry Potters bedroom is just with out the room.)

"Hey you." I heard a voice say flirtatiously and I peer the the pitch black space and I meet no eyes. "Over here sweet thing." The voice says and my heart stops at those specific words.

Sweet thing

Dear god help me. Then my eyes met a brown pair and his hands met my waist. I was speechless. The only thing coming out of my mouth were the exhales of breath because my mouth was agape in shock.

"I've missed you." He coos and bows his head into kiss me but I back up. The smell of whiskey is strong on his breath and I don't want to be his drunken mistake.

"Stop." I say rasping a voice like whisper.

"What's wrong?" He asks looking hurt.

"Because when you wake up in the morning your not gonna remember what happened at all, you can't do this." I say and his smile drops.

"I'm not as drunk as you think babe, I always remember my moments with you." He says lowly and his lips press gently onto mine along with his fingers touching my palms.

{flashback}

They were fighting against the door, little did I know that Mathew was much stronger than Shawn but Shawn had better fighting skills. He had scratches all over his back from Shawn trying to get away from him. Or grabbing the skin on his back and slamming him, it was brutal.

Then Mathew was screaming for Shane, he was under Shawn who had his hands clasped around his throat. Shane let me go, and threw Shawn off of Mathew, telling him to screw off and helped Mathew up off the ground. His appearance of was terrifying. His eyes were dark green, tan skin all bruised and cut, his mouth agape searching for air.

Next thing i know he looked at me, pinned me against the door and gave me the coldest look in my eyes. "Get out." He said lowly and my face drained color, his grip was crazy on my ribs and I tried to move by he slammed me again. "What's Wrong With You?!" He shouts and punched the door right next to my face.

"Shane!" I cry out when he does it again, and I lasted my eyes shut, waiting for help. The grip is released and I'm on the floor, crying.

I pushed him off of me, tears pulling down my face and I turned away, walking as quick as I could but as quiet as possible so I wouldn't be noticed. Then I was lifted by my waist from behind, almost making me scream before a hand covered my mouth.

"Come on." U heard the whisper and then I was carried up the attic steps and the door shut behind my trapper. "Fucking talk to me Mary Anne!" Mathew shouted in the sound proof room, tugging at the roots of his hair.

"What do you want me to say?! The truth?! That I can't live without you, that your everything to me but I'm terrified of you?! Mathew, something are better left in the dark." I yell back and he stands frozen.

"Y-your terrified of me?" He asks quietly and my gaze shoots to the ground. "Answer me." He demands and I nod, letting everything out on the table. Tears race down his face and he looks away from me. "Oh my gosh.. The one thing I promised to never do.. And I do it! I'm fucking done! Mary Anne please just end me. Break my heart one last time that way I can just die. Please." He begs and I do the one thing I never dreamt of doing in these last weeks.

I hug him.

"I love you Mathew."

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