Behind the Fame

A Song for You

Jessica

"Sara, Honey, we're going to be late! We need to be at the airport by 2AM! It's 1:00! Come on move!" I shouted from the kitchen. The kids are already ready and are playing on their play area, as I pack a few sandwiches for us in case we get hungry and fill our flasks with coffee.

"I'm coming Baby! Sorry I just needed to make sure that we have everything we need and of course the house is safe from any electrical stuff you know." She defended as she came running down the stairs.

"I know, I know and I love you for making sure all of that's covered but I don't want to be late and then miss our flight. We have about 24 hours trip ahead of us and that'll make the kids cranky which we'll both end up being crankier." I said as I kissed her. We head to our car and headed to the airport.

Between us both, Sara has always been the one who quadruple checks everything before we head out. Even if it's just heading out for groceries and I appreciate her for that.

"Penny for your thoughts?" Sara asked as she put her hand on my thigh.

"Oh nothing. I was just appreciating how you take care of us. You always make sure that everything and everyone is settled. Thank you."

"Anything for you and our kids, Baby. I love you, Jessica."

"I love you too. Listen to the song again?"

"Yeah... I'd love too."

We sort of made it a tradition to wake up to a recording of a song we each sing for each other to listen to as soon as we open our eyes in the morning. It makes us feel so loved and at the same time, it reassures the other of the love we have. I won't get tired of doing this every morning. It's something we always look forward to. Songs can sometimes radiate the feelings and emotions you have inside that normally you can't finds words to say or describe it. It gives us a glimpse of what each of us are thinking at that moment.

"I'm playing your song first." I said as I giggle. I loved the song she chose to sing to me this morning. I plugged the aux to my phone and hit the play button.

🎶 I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough. We danced the night away, we drank too much. I held your hair back when you were throwing up. Then you smiled over your shoulder. For a minute, I was stone-cold sober. I pulled you closer to my chest. And you asked me to stay over. I said, I already told ya I think that you should get some rest.

I knew I loved you then, but you'd never know 'Cause I played it cool when I was scared of letting go. I know I needed you, but I never showed. But I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old. Just say you won't let go. Just say you won't let go.

I'll wake you up with some breakfast in bed. I'll bring you coffee with a kiss on your head
And I'll take the kids to school, wave them goodbye. And I'll thank my lucky stars for that night. When you looked over your shoulder, for a minute, I forget that I'm older. I wanna dance with you right now. Oh, and you look as beautiful as ever. And I swear that everyday you'll get better. You make me feel this way somehow.

I'm so in love with you and I hope you know. Darling, your love is more than worth its weight in gold. We've come so far, my dear, look how we've grown .And I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old. Just say you won't let go. Just say you won't let go

I wanna live with you, even when we're ghosts 'Cause you were always there for me when I needed you most. I'm gonna love you 'til my lungs give out. I promise 'til death we part like in our vows. So I wrote this song for you, now everybody knows that it's just you and me 'til we're grey and old Just say you won't let go. Just say you won't let go. Just say you won't let go. Oh, just say you won't let go 🎶

I was smiling the whole time I was listening to her voice singing this song. I can't help but imagine us years from now. I also feel like there was a hidden message she wanted to say.

Sara

I chose to sing her this song because I want her to know that I am in this forever. There's nothing I would live for and strive to be but for her and for our children. She is my life. She is the reason I am breathing. Also, I was hoping for her to pick up a few clues on the song as to what this trip is going to be and how it'll turn out.

"Okay your song next." I told her, excitedly. The song she chose, her voice, I wanted to just stay in that moment a bit longer. Every day, I fall in love with her even more.

🎶 If I never knew you, if I never felt this love, I would have no inkling of how precious life can be. And if I never held you, I would never have a clue. How at last I found in you the missing part of me.

In this world so full of fear, full or rage and lies, I can see the truth so clear in your eyes, so dry your eyes. And I'm so grateful to you. I'd have lived my whole life through lost forever if I never knew you.

If I never knew you, I'd be safe but half as real. Never knowing I could feel a love so string and true. I'm so grateful to you/ I'd have lived my whole life through lost forever if I never knew you.

I thought our love would be so beautiful. Somehow we'd make the whole world bright. I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong all they'd leave us were these whispers in the night. But still my heart is saying we were right.

If I never knew you, I would have no inkling of how precious life can be. I thought our love would be so beautiful. Somehow we made the whole world bright. I though our love would be so beautiful. We turned the darkness into light, and still my heart is saying we were right. We were right... And if I never knew you, I'd have lived my whole life through, empty as the sky, never knowing why. Lost forever, if I never knew you. 🎶

I can't help the tears that were falling from my eyes. And as I glanced at her, tears were falling from her radiant blue eyes. I can't help it. I stopped in the middle of the road and kissed her deep.

"I love you Baby. Don't ever leave... please..." I said almost pleading.

"Never. Not without you. I love you too." Jessica answered and that made me cry and laugh at the same time.

"We're going to be late Sara. We have to go..." She said. I reluctantly pulled from the kiss and drove to the airport. I cannot wait to arrive in Africa so I can hold her close to me. She has no idea.