There'll Be Storms (Spanking Story)

Chapter 45

*Hi everyone, I am sorry I know this is short but I wanted to break it down enough to make room in the next chapter. I hope you enjoy and I hope to have a new chapter posted soon! - K.A.*

ERYK'S POV: 

"Well, how are you feeling today Eryk?" Mr. Davis asked after sitting with me in silence for almost twenty minutes. 

"I-I'm sorry that I'm so quiet today, I have a lot on my mind and..." I shook my head. "my shoes feel tight." I finished, rolling my eyes in the process. 

"What's on your mind?" He put his pen behind his ear, giving me his full attention which meant the pressure was on. 

"I," I shifted my hands up in surrender. "I spanked Cody." 

Looking up to see his reaction, I could tell he was somewhat taken back by it and who could blame him. But now that I revealed this to him, I was expecting something in return. 

"And you're conflicted about this because...?" He seemed genuinely curious. 

"I've never hit him before. You should have seen the look he gave me whenever I did it...I always hated that look." 

"So you've seen it before, did you have Charlie's permission to do this?" 

"Well he said that he had no problem with it, but he didn't like how I was whenever I did it." 

"Oh, so you were acting off of some dark emotions? Anger? Frustration?" 

"All of the above. We were at the gas station filling up the gas can and I told him I wanted to go to military school, and that I had Charlie's approval, and he freaked out and ran all the way home."

"He gave you quite a scare didn't he?" He rhetorically asked. 

"I thought he was going to get hurt and whenever I caught him, I just lost it. He's never run away from me like that." 

"You know Eryk, it's very easy to unleash some of these emotions unintentionally on someone when they ignite them in a certain instance..." He stopped to give me a look to see if I was catching on to what he was implying. "Do you think perhaps your guilt is stemming from a parallel instance you had with your fat...Jeff?"

"What do you mean?" 

"Did you ever experience hatred toward Jeff when he used to abuse you?" 

"Is that a joke? Of course I hated him!" I spit angrily. 

Mr. Davis raised his eyebrows and grabbed the pen from his ear to scribble something down very quickly. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to...yes I hated him for what he did to me, but I hated him even more for what he did to my mom and Cody." 

"Is there some possibility that this is why you feel so guilty? Because you saw that same look on Cody's face that he may have given to Jeff at one point in time." 

He had a good point, he had a very good point. Subconsciously, ever since that day I visited Jeff in jail and had to hear those things from his disgusting mouth, I've been terrified of what he said coming true. Mr. Davis was the only one who dared bring this up to me, Charlie tried to help the best he could and I loved him for that...but I think Mr. Davis knows how to push my limits. 

"I think you're right. I just really do not ever want someone to feel that way about me...and I still hate him every day for what he's done to my family." I started breathing heavily to keep myself from crying, even though it was a long shot. 

"Do you know the difference between pain and suffering?" 

"Um, pain is something that is mostly short-term but suffering can be extended?" I asked, not really sure what the relevance is here.