I'm just a loser.
외톨이.
I always forget the next line to that song.
I think I tried to remember it.
Never did.
Like most songs in Korean.
I gain the desire to learn it.
Just never gain the actual ability to.
(Loser)
I keep finding myself being proud.
(Loser)
Proud of things I can do or have done.
(Loser)
Ugh, can you hear it? It keeps mocking me. Every time I think I do well, she comes back to tell me that there is no reason for me to ever feel proud of myself.
(Hahahaha)
Loser. There. I said it. I waste time. I make poor decisions. I think about the possibilities of situations. If there's a possibility of someone closing on their own, I'm not taking that risk to call in. Just because of the probability. If I could make something easier for someone the next day even if that means taking a little longer today, I'm taking it. Just because I don't want anyone to feel overwhelmed.
(Loser)
Shut up! I know! They already told me! I get it. No excuses. He was upset we left at 11, she was annoyed that I made a list that took a little more time. I know. I get it. Loser.
"No excuses". I don't say anything anyway. Its not like you ask. You don't speak with me. We aren't scheduled together.
(Loser)
Wow, that almost sounded like my own voice
(Because it is)
Loser.
YOU ARE READING
Finding Joy
PoesiaI never spent time seeking joy. I only spent time making a bed comfortable enough in sadness to bare it. Now, I'll see and work at finding joy. This is a continuation of "We Are the Normal Ones: Memoirs of a Fallen Human".
