Good morning. There's this song called 'Superpower' by Muni Long. It makes me think of you each time. There's a couple of lines in it. There's one that goes, "My charms don't work on you." But it's mainly these two where she sings, "I know that loving you gon' take some super strength. So how come my superpowers don't work on you and me?"
Jehovah has given me this superpower with people. I won't explain it, but I had a weakness with people (It's still a minor insecurity of mine). Then, over time, I realized that Jehovah helped me turn that weakness into a strength. I do not think they work on you or in your favor 😂 which might be a good thing for me. I can just be. But maybe it's bad for you. It's just I don't know how to exist in a way where I'm not considering the person next to me at all times. Which, in actuality, can be a facade. When I'm sad, I redirect my attention to someone else. My thought is, 'If I'm sad, someone else is probably sad, too.' Maybe 'they' need encouragement. Maybe 'they' need a distraction in the form of a silly game. A song. An excuse to get out of the house and hang out. A lot of times, that person I reached out to really did need all of that. And so did I. My superpowers don't work on you, lol. I'm a flop. I'm not sure what to do. I don't know how to just be. It's uncomfortable. Like a caterpillar inside a chrysallis.
I hope you have a great day. I have SMPW orientation today. I was excited for it. You know, I did tell myself not to text you until you reached out. That way, you could let me know when you were okay. But I fear I'll never hear from you again 😅 that was another reason why I wanted to play tic tac toe, I was sad, but I wanted to some indication that you were doing okay. But it got shut down so quick.
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Finding Joy
PoesiaI never spent time seeking joy. I only spent time making a bed comfortable enough in sadness to bare it. Now, I'll see and work at finding joy. This is a continuation of "We Are the Normal Ones: Memoirs of a Fallen Human".
