My Kidnapper Loved me

~7/9/11 & 8/9/11~

I woke up the next morning to Payton lying beside me, not in her crib, but in an unfamiliar bed fast asleep. Not knowing what was going on only that her father and I were now under completely different roofs. Not knowing where each other are in the world, I sat up feeling sad and lonely like a piece of me was missing, like I lost a part of my heart. For the first time since I left the house I cried, I cried quietly so I wouldn't wake up my beautiful baby girl sleeping next to me. I knew if I did wake her I would see her fathers eyes and go running back to him and I knew that is the one thing I couldn't do.

~8/9/11~

It's been a month since I left, and I still haven't gone home, but today I'm finally going to go home. All that I've done since I left is cry, and think about how sad it would be for my daughter to grow up without a father, without her father. After I packed up my bags I left the hotel heading back to the place I once called home praying that Tyler hadn't moved on. I still love him even though he hurt me, I missed him like crazy and I hope he missed me just as much. After the fifteen minute drive I finally arrived back home, I used the key to enter thankful that he didn't change the locks, I walked in seeing that everything was as if I never left.

"I didn't think you'd come back."

I turned around a little startled to see Tyler standing in the doorway looking at me.

"If I'm being honest I didn't think I would either, but over the past month I didn't do anything but cry, and think about what Pay and I's lives would be like without you. It doesn't mean that I'm not still hurt or that I completely forgive you but I missed you and I'm sorry I left."

He nodded his head walking towards me taking Payton from my arms.

"I've missed you baby girl you've gotten so big."

He gently kissed her forehead, and I smiled while he set her in her bouncer seat, he stood up looking at me with sad tired eyes like he hasn't slept much since I've been gone.

"I missed you El, I regretted everything I said the moment I said it, you didn't deserve that if I could go back and change all of it I would but I can't. If you want to leave me then we can get a divorce if that's what you want, if not then we can figure all of this out together."

I don't want a divorce, I love him, being away from him the past month was hell.

"Tyler I don't want a divorce, did I think about it yeah I did but that's not for me, I want us to work and in order for that to happen we need to work together. You have to watch how you talk to me because I can't do this anymore, if you hurt me like this again then it's all over, I'll leave and I won't come back this is your last chance Tyler no more alright."

He nodded his head pulling me into a hug before pulling away, leaning his forehead against mine.

"I missed you El, I'm so sorry."

"I know, just please don't do it again I can't take it, I mean after everything we've been through, my parents, getting married, having a baby. It's honestly a lot, we need to make this work, I love you Tyler but I can't get hurt like that again."

"I know baby and I'm so sorry, I love you too much to let you go again, please don't leave me."

I saw tears fill in his blue eyes, I took his face in my hands softly kissing his lips.

"As long as you don't hurt me again, I promise."

His eyes lit up and happiness flashed across his face, I've never seen him so happy. He grabbed me into a tight hug lifting me off the ground into a spinning hug making me laugh.

"I love you El."

I smiled at him letting out a small chuckle.

"I love you too."