My Kidnapper Loved me

~10/18/11~

The past month has been nothing but working on my divorce, Tyler and I going to court, and finally signing papers. The good thing is that we are finally divorced, I signed the papers last night and sent them in today, it feels good to know that that part of my life is finally over. I just hope that Tyler signs them so we can both move on with our lives. I received full custody of Payton and Tyler has no visiting rights due to his violent tendencies. It's sad that he won't get to see her grow up, but in a way he did it to himself, so in all honesty I don't feel bad about it. I still live with Ryan, he and I have gotten a lot closer but I promised myself that I would wait till my divorce was final before I told him that I love him. The problem is that now it's too late Ryan has a girlfriend and I have made the guest room my permanent home. I've been saving up to move out and get an apartment, it's just taking longer than I expected, it's hard to see him with another girl but I don't have a say in the matter. All that's left for me to do now is leave him to be happy, I have to get out because every time she's around it hurts, I knew I would get hurt.

"Elena, can I talk to you?"

I turned around to see Ryan standing in the doorway to my room.

"Yeah sure, what's up?"

"Is something wrong, I mean since Mel and I got together you've been acting strange not to mention you don't talk to me anymore."

I took a deep breath shaking my head letting out a sigh before letting my eyes beet his caramel brown ones.

"I have to leave, I found out that my parents house is for rent for two hundred bucks a month, I already signed the papers. Today's the day that I start moving in, I have to go get some of my things from Tyler's then go to the house."

I lied, I lied my ass off.

"Oh, well congrats really that's amazing I'm happy for you..."

I smiled and went to walk away.

"But that doesn't explain why you've changed when it comes to me? Are you gonna tell me?"

"Is Mel in the house?"

"No why?"

"I don't want her to get hurt or hear what I'm about to say."

"No, she's not here."

"I asked you to wait till my divorce was final, I told you I was falling for you slowly but surely falling for you. My divorce is final and I was about to tell you that I love you when Mel walked through the door, but it's okay because you're happy, and it's time for me to move on. I'm gunna go, I'm almost out of your house, I hope things work out with you and Mel, you deserve to be happy, goodbye Ryan."

I walked out of the room, and down the hall I heard running footsteps behind me and felt a light grip on my wrist. I was turned around to see Ryan's caramel brown eyes staring into my sad green ones, and I knew that he was going to fight this.

"You don't get to say something like that and walk out."

"Why does it matter? You chose Mel, you chose not to wait for me, I can't stay here and watch you with her so I'm leaving, have fun with Mel I'll see you at work."

I ripped my wrist from his hold turning to walk away.

"I love you Elena."

I turned back around and looked at him shaking my head.

"No you don't, because if you did you would have waited."

He walked over to me placing his soft hand on my cheek.

"I would choose you any day."

"Yeah, but you didn't, goodbye Ryan."

I moved away from him and walked out the door to my car, I got in and drove to Tyler's one last time. I rang the doorbell and Tyler soon came to the door with a big box of my things including the medal lock box with my gun in it and the key on a chain.

"Thank you, goodbye Tyler."

I turned around and went to walk off the porch when a soft voice stopped me.

"So it wasn't enough to break my heart, you had to take my daughter to? You really are a bitch from hell."

I turned around letting my venomous voice fill his ears for the last time.

"Ya know what Tyler, you chose to be violent that's why you lost your daughter and that's why you lost me. You fucked up, you lost us, you fucked up not me, I tried, I looked past all of your bullshit, until you fucked up for the last time, so don't call me a bitch when you have no one to blame but yourself."

Just then a car pulled into the driveway and Ryan got out of his car, I saw Tyler walk back into the house locking the door on me forever. I saw Ryan run up to me, I set the box down and walked towards him with a confused look on my face, before I could say anything his lips were on mine. I felt so many emotions within this one kiss, I felt lust, passion, need, but most off all I felt love. Love the one word that has scared the hell out of me through this whole journey, the L word that most teenage girls dread but also long to hear, he parted from the kiss leaning his forehead against mine looking me in the eyes.

"I choose you."

I let out a shaky breath looking at him.

"Ryan you're with Mel I can't do that to her, I'm not that kinda person."

"I already talked to her and she understands, Elena I love you, I want you, no not even that I need you. You make me happy, and that little girl in that car seat is amazing, I would love to be her father, well step father."

By the time he finished what he had to say I was in tears.

"I love you Ryan."

He smiled lifting me off the ground into a hug, I smiled before my feet were planted back on the ground.

"I think you should call those renters and cancel your first month."

I laughed and shook my head.

"Honestly I was just going to a hotel."

He shook his head looking at me like I'm crazy.

"Alright I get it, let's go home."

I nodded my head and got in my car, before driving home, the drive back home was rushed by the both of us. Once home I left my things in the car and got Payton out of the back seat, I ran into the house with Ryan following close behind me. I took Payton to the guest room and laid her down for her nap before two arms snaked around me. I turned in his arms, and he picked me up from the ground putting me over his shoulder, I laughed and he closed Payton's door. He carried me to our room, and I felt my back hit the bed seeing lust and love in his eyes knowing that I was ready.

"I love you Elena."

I smiled and looked at him.

"I love you Ryan."

That night we didn't make love, he wanted to take it slow and I was okay with that in fact I thought it was kinda sweet. We laid in bed talking and laughing, it felt good to be with someone where there was more than just sex on his mind. We kissed each other goodnight, and I fell asleep in his arms for the first time in a long time it felt good to feel that again, to be with him again.