(im)possible love | Woosan

a little something

Wooyoung woke up in his ghost form the next morning. It was a miracle to him how he was even able to sleep as a ghost, but maybe it was just because he had shifted in the middle of the night while still sleeping.

It annoyed him that he was a ghost again. One of the biggest disadvantages of being a spirit definitely was not being able to touch anything and therefore floating above the bed instead of laying in the comfortable sheets.

Sighing deeply, he floated up higher. It was only then that he noticed the other person under the blanket.

SAN, I SWEAR TO GOD-

The other boy screwed up his eyes shortly before he opened them sleepily. Wooyoung's loud scream in his head had involuntarily woken him up.

"Wooyoung?", he mumbled. "Are you here?" Confused, the older sat up and rubbed his eyes. But he suddenly stopped in the middle of his movement.

The events of last night came back to his mind all at once.

He and Wooyoung had gotten very intimate. To the point, where they almost had sex. Almost.

After the younger had given San a blow job, he was so exhausted that he just collapsed on San's lap and fell asleep. 

The older then carried him to Yunho's guest room and they both stayed the night in the bed there, sleeping deeply.

And he was glad.

He was so glad that they didn't actually have sex with each other.

Wooyoung, who was still floating under the ceiling, also just now remembered what they did last night and he was just as shocked as San.

With one little difference. He didn't regret it. He didn't regret anything.

To be honest, his hopes that San would feel something for him too only grew. Everything felt so real.

When he was kissing the older, all he could think about was him. He even forgot that he was dead for a while. Only now, when he woke up he got reminded again.

"Wooyoung." He heard San's voice again. "I know you're here, but you probably can't get visible anymore today because of... tonight, right?"

Right.

"Well, uhm.. I have to go to school, now", the older muttered, awkwardly scratching his neck while standing from the bed.

A-Are we not gonna talk about..us?

Wooyoung felt so shy asking San this, but he had to. He had to know where they stood.

His heart started beating rapidly at the thought of the older asking him to be his boyfriend any second.

"There is no us. At least not in the way you think. We were drunk and horny, that's all. I really have to go now."

Wooyoung's heart shattered. It felt like someone had ripped it out of his chest, carelessly thrown it to the ground and then trampled on it. And this someone was Choi San. His crush, his love, his everything.

D-did all of this tonight really not mean anything to you? Not even a... little something?

San sighed deeply. "Wooyoung, I don't know what you expected, but I'm neither gay nor attracted to you in any kind of way."

The ghosts sadness turned into anger.

You're obviously lying right now. You MUST be lying. Don't tell me that you only played with me tonight because you were bored or something.

"As I said, I was drunk. You were drunk. I don't even remember exactly what we did." San grabbed his shirt from the floor, hastily pulled it over and went to the door to leave.

You're lying...

Wooyoung wasn't even convinced himself anymore. Maybe, the older really just played with him because they were drunk and only had each other in the moment.

But he didn't want to believe this. He clung to the thought that San was lying. It was the only explanation. It had to be true.

Or maybe it was not...

"I'm heading to class now. You can follow me if you want, if not just do whatever", San said, before exiting the room.

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