My person

13

Waking up, the first thing that came to my mind is, fuck.

Today is the day  I am meeting the team. Although I came earlier, than I had to, to camp, most of them weren't here yet, so that's why I am meeting them later.

In the meantime, I have spent my days with Mal, Christen and Tobin, them being the only teammates I have  met until now, if you leave the small introduction after the match out of it.

I haven't told anyone about what has happened with my roommate. I hope that if I ignore it, it goes away. The painful memories of Chloe's hands on me. And the fact that she has a picture of me, that can ruin everything for me.  I don't know what would happen if my team would find out. Mal already told me that most of them are openminded, but I don't really like to tell a lot of people about my body.

I am nervous about meeting the others. I don't know if they are going to like me. I don't even know if I am good enough for this team.

At Arsenal I didn't really have alot of people to talk to. Most of them ignored me because they thought I wasn't ready for the team with me being this young. I just wasn't experienced enough. I did talk to a couple of them, but most of the time I kept quiet and to myself, not wanting to make somebody upset or angry.

In this team, I have Mal. The two of us are best friends and I know Mal won't leave me alone. I also have Christen and Tobin. I know I can talk to them if I want. They have been there for me the past couple of days. I hope, the team and I are going to get along well.

-

"Are you nervous?", Christen smiles at me reassuringly. We are on our way to the conference room to introduce me to the team and the team to me.

"I dunno. Kinda? But I am also excited". She nods content with my answer. We step into the elevator and Tobin pushes the right button.

"It's going to be alright, Y/nn", Mallory gives me a small smile as she rubs her thumb over my hand. I smile at her and squeeze her hand.

We walk out of the elevator and into the room. As we walk in, almost if not everyone was there already. They all fall quiet as they look at us, well me specifically. I let go of Mallory's hand as we go to sit in one of the chairs.

Coach Ellis starts to explain some things as we all 'listen'. Some of us are talking quietly, completely ignoring our coach. I am playing with Mal's fingers, nervously.

"Now, we have a new teammate. Y/n can you come forward please-"

When I stand up, the door to the conference room flies open and in comes a blonde girl. She awkwardly laughs. "Sorry I am late".

"As always. Sit down, Sam", coach says while she chuckles.

The girl goes to sit down. I walk further to Jill and stand next to her. "Why don't you introduce yourself".

I nod and take another step forward. "Hi, I am Y/n Y/ln. I am 18 years old and I study at UCLA. That's it, I think?", I look at coach, silently asking her to help me out of this awkward moment. She smiles and places her hand on my back.

"She plays midfielder and forward. Please give her a good welcome. You're already rooming with Mal, so we are keeping it that way", She informs the last part to me.

I nod and take my place next to Mal again.

"Can we have a teambonding in my room?", Kelley asks coach excitedly.

"Yes, but keep it down please. We are not the only ones here". Kelley cheers excitedly as she high fives Emily. I chuckle at their antics and look at Mal. My smile turns into a frown when I see her texting Dansby. She is smiling and blushing. I rub my forehead frustratedly. Why does she has to have a boyfriend?

-

"Sooo Y/nn. Can I call you that?", Kelley looks at me expectantly. I nod and listen to what she has to say. "Why don't we just ask you some questions to get to know our newbie a little better".

"Sure. Ask away"

We are all sitting in her room, scattered around the chamber. Some are on the beds, some on the floor. Mal is sitting on the other side of the room. I pout at that. I want her close.

"I will start!", Emily says excitedly as she jumps up. "Are you single?".

"Wow straight to the point I guess", I chuckle nervously. I knew this question was probably going to come, but I didn't expect it this early. "I am single".

"Great! Are you interested in someone?", she keeps asking. Hmm. I can't tell them I like Mallory. She is sitting right over there. She can't know. I don't even know for sure.

"Not really", my eyes go to Mal and just as quickly back to Emily. I can see Kelley look between Mallory and I, smirking. She probably knows something. Or thinks she knows something.

We talk more. They ask me questions about everything. From my favourite color, to why I started playing soccer. It was kind of fun. I answered them the best I could. I didn't tell them about me being intersex or anything like that.

Right now, we are deciding what movie we are going to watch. It appears to be difficult. Not everybody wants to see the same things. I just sit back and watch, not really bothered about what we are going to watch.

-

Mal, who is sitting at the other side of the room, looks at me. She is sitting too far. How is she supposed to cuddle me when she is so far away.

"Y/nn?", she asks as she looks at me.

I look up from talking to Christen. I raise my eyebrow, silently asking what's up.

"Come here"

"Why?", I raise my eyebrow in suspicion.

"Just come here"

"No, you're gonna hit me"

Some of their teammates laugh at their interactions, not being used to see Mal behaving like these with someone. They are a wonderful pair. Too bad they don't realise themselves.

"No... I am not going to slap you. I just want to cuddle", Mal pouts at me innocently. She sticks her arms out and makes grabbing motions with her hands. "Please".

I feel like I am going to melt at how cute my crush is right now. Everyone knows I can't say no to the smaller girl.

I stand up and walk toward her friend. I jump onto the couch next to Mal and wrap my arms around her, pulling her close. We both sigh contently and talk to others with a smile on their faces.