My person

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The moment Y/n spoke those words, hell went loose in the room.

We were all watching the interview. It is being live streamed on the tv right now. I know Y/n was nervous. Talking about their life on live tv. I would be nervous. I can't imagine how they are feeling right now. Most of the stuff they haven't even confessed to close people to them. Like their parents. Or our teammates. This must be hard for them.

Then they said those words. "I am a trans man and my pronouns are he/him and they/them".

I am so fucking proud of them. Like I don't have any words to describe how proud I am of them. They are so fucking brave for doing this on live tv.

"Did you guys know?", Carli asks us. She looks at me and then at Christen and Tobin.

"I did", I tell her. Christen and Tobin nod too.

"I did too", Ashlyn confesses and Ali agrees with her. "I heard them talk to Dawn and we talked afterwards. They gave me permission to tell Ali".

"We've been misgendering the whole time?", Kelley whispers, clearly in shock.

"Yeah and it hurt them. But you didn't know so all you can do is use the right pronouns from now on", Christen says calmly.

I know everyone is going to feel sad and guilty about using the wrong pronouns and making Y/n feel uncomfortable. But like Christen said they didn't know.

We wait for another hour for Y/n to return. When they do, they walk into the room timidly.

Everyone cheers once again when they walk in. "I'm so proud of you", Christen tells them and kiss them on their forehead.

"Attaboy", Ashlyn says. Y/n laughs loudly and hugs everyone. Then they come to me. They hesitate but then step forward to hug me. I hug them back tightly.

"You did great, Y/nn", I tell them. They pull back and sit down on one of the chairs.

"I am going to have to call my parents", They grin nervously, rubbing the back of their neck. "I hadn't told them anything".

"Goodluck"

We all watch them walk away. I feel nervous in their place. After everything they just told about their parents, I can't really guess whether their reaction is going to be good or bad. For her sake, I hope they react well.

They come back inside the room, looking down.

"So", they start. Everyone waits in anticipation. We all want to know what's going on and they are just messing with us by making us wait so long.

"They kicked me out"

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Y/n's point of view

"Y/n Y/Ln?", I hear a woman call my name. I look up from my phone. I was reading the reactions from our fans.

Most of them are good, telling me how proud they are of me. And saying sweet stuff, trying to make me feel better about myself. But there are bad reactions too. Like mostly from older men, telling me and other teammates that I shouldn't be in the team. Because I am not a woman.

I walk up to the woman in front of me. "Your first time here?", she asks me politely as we walk to the doctor's office.

"Yeah", i grin nervously.

"Well, nothing to be nervous about. Just talk about what you want and why and the doctor will see what he can do to help you"

"Thank you", I say when she drops me off at the office. She turns around and walks back to the reception. I knock on the door and then walk in. I sit down in one of the chairs in front of him.

"Hi, I am doctor Smith. I understand that you're here to talk about getting top surgery done?", the doctor says as he reads my file on his computer.

"Yeah. I uh yeah. I would like to have top surgery" I mumble nervously.

We talk a little bit more and then he asks me to sit on the table. When I sit down, he tells me I will have to take off my shirt. Basically, everything until my chest is naked.

I start undressing cautiously. First I pull off my hoodie, then my shirt and lastly my binder. Timidly, I sit on the table with my arms across my chest, trying to hide everything.

He tells me that since my chest is already small, the operation wouldn't take long and they don't need to touch my nipples. Which is great. That means there are going to be less scars. It also has a faster healing time and usually preserves sensation in the nipples. During this surgery, incisions are made around the borders of the areolae and the surrounding skin. Breast tissue will be removed through the incisions and some skin also might be removed. Remaining skin will reattached at the border of the areola.

I also had to do a blood test to ensure the testosterone level is in my target range. Which it is. I don't take any more testosterone.

They did other kinds of tests. A review of my personal and family medical history. A physical exam, including an assessment of my internal reproductive organs. Lab tests measuring my lipids, blood sugar, blood count, liver enzymes and electrolytes. A review of my immunizations
Age- and sex-appropriate screenings. Identification and management of tobacco use, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, HIV and other sexually transmitted infections. Discussion about contraception and future fertility.

Everything went great and smoothly. They told me I could come in next month, since someone had cancelled. I feel fucking great about it. Finally something is going good in my life.

Maybe I will be happy after all.