My person

26

Heads up. This chapter has a lot of words. It explains most of it. It is just a lot to take in. But have fun :)
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"Now, we all know about the scandal that just came into the news. Now, we have a guest to talk about it. Please welcome Y/n Y/Ln", Kelly yells.

Now you may ask. How did a female soccer star scored an interview with Kelly Clarkson. Well, I don't know either. When Jill told me she would get me an interview with someone famous, so that I can spread my word more widely, I didn't  think I would be speaking on a widely known talk show. I'm nervous as hell.

"Hi", I say quietly as I walk onto the stage. I give Kelly a hug and then sit down in my assigned seat. "Thank you for having me".

"Of course. Now, we all know you're here because of the picture that was leaked. We don't go into that just right. Why don't we start slowly. Talk about yourself some more. Introduce you", Kelly proposes as I just nod along.

"Uh I am Y/n Y/Ln and right now I play midfielder for the USWNT", I start.

"Before you were called up for the us women's soccer team, you played for Arsenal right? How did you find it switching teams. Was it hard?", Kelly ask to give the audience some more background from me.

"Not really. Playing for Arsenal was great, but I didn't really have many friends back there. I can almost say I had no friends. I didn't really talk to people, so there was a huge part missing in my time there. Now at uswnt, I have friends. I went to UCLA with Mallory, so I already knew her before I joined the team. This has really helped me well, since the team took me in as one of their own since day one. Not only have i friends now, I feel like I have a family"

The people who were sitting in the audience aww at me, making me blush and chuckle nervously.

"And can you maybe tell us why you didn't have friends at Arsenal?"

"Yeah. I didn't feel comfortable. And I mean that in the sense that I didn't feel comfortable in the team but also in my own body. I didn't feel like I was myself ome hundred percent and I let that get in the way of making friends. With the uswnt, I have people who I trust and were I am comfortable with to talk about what's going on with me, making me feel better"

"Can you elaborate some more why you don't feel comfortable about yourself and does it has something to do with the picture that were leaked?".

"When I was born, everyone thought I was a boy. So my parents dressed me as one, let me play with boy toys and stuff like that until I was eleven years old... i started to grow breasts. I had a lot of stomachaches and then I went to the hospital. It turned out that I am intersex. When my parents heard that, I didn't get to decide wether I wanted to be a boy or a girl. They told me that same day we had found out, that I had to choose between a boy or a girl and later on when I would have turned 18, I had to get surgery to be completely what I chose back then. I was eleven years old. I didn't know what I wanted to be. They chose for me. From that moment on, I had to dress as to how they liked. Like a girl. From that moment on, I didn't feel like myself anymore. When I earned my own money, I bought my own clothes that felt more like me. The picture that was leaked came from my roommate. I don't know how she knows about me. All I know is that she touched me down there without my permission and then leaked a picture, taken without my permission. I still feel violated and I hope she gets what she deserves"

"I hope so too. What she has done is not something normal. She will get punished and she will get what she deserves. Your parents too. Forcing you like that to be something you don't wanna be. Have you talked to them about this?"

"No. I'm not really open about anything. My parents and I aren't that close. We will probably talk about it after this interview, since they will see this", I chuckle nervously. I hadn't really thought about it. But now it is out in the open air. They will know. And I will need to talk to them.

"Were you ever planning on telling the media that you are intersex?", Kelly asks carefully. It is a good question. I am not prepared for this one, but still.

"No. Honestly, intersex is not something that is widely known. There aren't a lot of people who are intersex and if there are, they aren't open about it. I do want to represent the community. Since it is more accepted now than before, I am happy it has come out and that I can help a lot more people now, but I am or was just not really open about it myself. Most people who knew accepted me, but the fact that my own parents were ashamed of me, played a huge role into accepting myself and coming out for it"

"That's right. Intersex isn't really known. How did that go? If you had to tell anyone about it. How did they react?"

"Most of them thought, I was trans. Which is normal, I think. If I wasn't intersex, I probably wouldn't know what it is either. Most of them had a good reaction though. They weren't disgusted by me. Which is all I ask for"

"Now, You told us your parents gave you the female gender because they wanted a daughter, I assume. But do you really feel like that?"

"From the moment I had to dress like a girl, I knew something was off. I didn't feel like me. And at the beginning They just told me it was because of me being a boy and dressing like one until I was eleven that I was used to it. I didn't want to disappoint anyone so I never talked about it again. But now, years later and now that I have talked to some close friends of mine, I came to a realisation" I take a deep breath, preparing for what's coming next. This is something not a lot of people know and now, it's going to be out in the open world.

"I am a trans man and my pronouns are he/him and they/them"