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Chapter 53: Christmas Part 1.

Chapter 53: Christmas Part 1.

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   I wake up early to only feel a little tired still. But the first thing I did was wake up. And I just forced myself out of bed. Mandy was asleep on the most coziest sleeping bag. I saw her past out and looking so nice in her sleep. And I actually couldn't wait for it to be the day of Christmas. And I had gotten up quietly and I had walked out of my room trying not to wake Mandy. I had walked out of my room, entering the hall and I had gone into the bathroom to wash my face.

     I looked at my reflection in the mirror and I actually looked terrible. I slept well. At least until' I woke up at one the morning when I heard Noah's loud outburst. I asked him if everything was fine between him and Christopher. He said everything was fine. But I have my doubts that he's lying. Did they get into a fight? Because Christopher got out of there quickly. I just wish Christopher would talk to me. He barely talked to me at dinner. He didn't even look at me. It's like he's afraid to look at me or talk to me.

    As soon as I was done in the bathroom I quickly redid my hair and I tied it up in a neater but messy ponytail and I had left out of the bathroom and I went across to Hallie's room and when I opened the door quietly at 6am and I saw Christopher asleep on the floor. I frowned, trying to figure this out. He looked so peaceful. As if it's the best that he's ever slept. I had gotten down to level with him and I sat beside him.

    I didn't want to wake Christopher up right away. I decided to just observe him. And I saw the nice look on his face. He looked cute. And I just wish it was like the old times. When we used to cuddle. And I kinda miss it. But, I can't think like that when I'm with Noah.

    "Hey Christopher, I know we haven't spoken yet. I do miss not talking to you. I know you must hate me for getting back together with Noah. And I know that you trust me. And you care about my happiness. And I care about yours. But, I know that you know about my dad cheating on my mom with Mrs. Golightly. I was mad when I overheard it. But I'm not now. And I'm sorry that you had to hear it from her. And I'm sorry that I been distant from you again since Noah and I got back together. And I don't care if you and Mandy date. I know that you adore my happiness with Noah. And you want what's best for me. So please for today don't ruin what I love. And that's my relationship with Noah." I spoke so gentle, soft and a bit whispery so that Hallie wouldn't wake from inside her crib. I continued and said, "I love Noah. And I know that your not over me. I know that you still miss what we had. But Christopher, what we had is something the both of us will have to forget and just move on. I have. And you should too. A part of me hates to say that. But another part of me doesn't. But I still care about you, Christopher. But, I'm in love with Noah. And I will always be. And if you decide to date Mandy. I will understand your happiness. And if you love me... as I know deep down that you do... you'll let me be happy with Noah and try not to do anything to destroy it. Especially today."

   I had known talking to Christopher while he is sleeping... it is insane. But I had to say it to him. I know if I said any of this directly to him while he's awake, he would avoid me like a disease like he has been doing. So at least I said what I had to say.

     I got up but then I decided to shake him awake so that he could go back to sleep in his room. And when I woke him, he looked so unfamiliar of where he was. He sat up, groaning from the sun hitting inside the room from the windows.

   "You must've fallen asleep in here." I told him.

   "Oh," he groaned and then he got up and he still seemed out of it. And I thought he might pass out or fall like a drunk person.