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Chapter 32: After

     Chapter 32: After

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      It's funny how someone can stay with you one minute and the next their gone. It's really strange that it goes quicker than flames being watered down. I had no idea what was to happen now. Matt and I didn't say anything to each other. He knew I needed to piece everything together. Process it all. Everything that happened. And I know Matt saw everything. He saw our fight. He saw Noah hit me. He must know. More than what he should know.

    I cried silently. I looked out the window and I had no idea what to do. When for once I needed Christopher, he was unavailable to answer his phone. Why did he ignore my phone call? Did he not see it was my name? Does he hate me? Does he care about me at all? Has he even thought to think that I might need him? But it seems he doesn't think that at all. He is dating Peach and now he don't give a fuck about me. It's like we're strangers. Like we don't even know each other. He must think that I'm dating Noah or so I was...that I don't need him anymore.

    A part of me couldn't understand how Noah could be so jealous, narcissistic, cruel, selfish and cold. And also, abusive. I couldn't understand it. After all the girls he flirts with in front of me. And since he admitted to cheating on me. I had no right to be jealous, according to him. But when I'm just talking to Matt he gets ticked off. He acts possessive and jealous. I don't think that's a boyfriend I want.

   I noticed Matt kept staring over at me a few times to check to see if I'm okay. And I felt awful about dragging him into this. I can't believe Noah punched him. That actually surprised me more than anything. And I actually hate Noah for what he had done. And what's worse I can't even understand how I could date someone like him. I think Christopher was right all along. Noah would hurt me. And he told me when he did to not go running to him. And that's what I'm trying to do. To run to him. To cry to him about everything. But I think Christopher was bluffing. I think if he knows what Noah did to me, he will kill him.

It seemed like Matt and I were driving for a bit. But it was mostly to clear my head. I asked Matt to take me to his place because I didn't wish to go back to where Noah and I live. And so I just rather stay with Matt. And I just couldn't breathe as the memories of it all just flowing in my head.

Once Matt pulled in, I had just looked at a beautiful house that sits in the darkness. And it looked like nothing Matt would live in. But when I saw him, staring at it in familiarity I knew this was his house. And quite beautiful as anything. I blinked once he turned his headlights and car off. I slowly remained silent unable to think of what to say.

I had felt like I could cry for hours, days, weeks, months, years if I have to. And I cannot actually understand how I'm living. If it didn't kill me then I'm half living right now. I wanted to scream. It was hurting me so much that I felt I needed to cry until I was able to accept that everything is finished. Me and Noah have ended.

We sat in the dead dark silence. Not even a cricket was heard in sight. And I just remained still. Matt took off his seatbelt and he turned to look at me. I wasn't sure what to say if he said anything. But I know he feels sorry for me. And guilty for what I went through tonight. And I didn't deserve it. Not like that.

"Look," Matt turned to look at me and I felt like I had his attention besides being at the gym. "I'm sorry for everything tonight. Maybe me going was a bad idea. I came between you and Noah and I feel kinda...responsible."

Tears swell in my eyes and I look right at him, feeling like I'm the one responsible. I honestly don't care what he obviously thinks because he didn't ruin anything. I looked at him with my eyes full of tears and being glassy.