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Chapter 29: The Holiday

Chapter 29: The Holiday

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      Somehow I feel like I have actually woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. I found it quite irritating to wake up late. And that's exactly what I did. It's Thanksgiving and I have actually took the thought by just going to mom and Gavin's. And Noah actually thought it would be good because he knows that things with dad and me are not so good.

I really want to spend Thanksgiving with mom, Gavin, Alex and Noah. I even heard my Grandmother is trying to actually show. And I haven't exactly seen her for a while. And I think she definitely deserves to. But I had also invited Matt to come over because he's obviously not spending it with anyone. And I actually neglected to tell Noah this. And most of our problems and jealousy issues is because of Noah's jealousy towards Matt. And he actually has no reason to be jealous when Matt and I are just friends.

    I really wanted to take space from Noah after that fight we had a week ago. But he had made it clear he didn't want us to have any space apart. Noah wouldn't be able t handle it. And I knew that. And I just actually like to have Noah around me. No matter what. It would be hard for me. But I didn't tell anybody about the fight Noah and I had that time. The fight that Noah had physically assaulted me in the sitting room. But I am actually glad to act as if it didn't happen.

   I woke up in the king sized bed, and I actually just lied there, looking up at the ceiling trying to process maybe last night's events. And last night's events were...making love.

Some might think that's all we do. But it's obviously not true. There are times that we just talk. And I never tell lies. And all I think about is how today is Thanksgiving and I have to get up and get ready. I look over to my right side of the bed and I see Noah still asleep. I see it is only eight in the morning. And I'm actually surprised that Noah is still sleeping. Usually he's up, already taken a shower and making breakfast. But since it is my time to be the first one up I actually wang to get up, take a shower and make breakfast. Back when I lived at home in Santa Monica, I always cooked breakfast. Mostly because dad couldn't. It was either me, Christopher or Colleen. Dad never cooked because he can't cook.

Very slowly I turned over to see Noah lying on his back his head turned in the opposite direction, with one of his hands underneath his pillow behind him. I could hear him snoring a bit which doesn't irritate me because I'm used to it. I actually stared over at me for a bit. And I just looked at him, kinda curious if he is dreaming or not. Or what he is dreaming about?

I slowly moved the covers off of me and I had gotten up, remembering I'm wearing one of his long sleeved shirts. And I had slowly gotten up and I had gone into our bathroom to turn on the shower. I had kept going back and forth to collect my clothes for today. I decided on a white floral dress. I even decided on a strapless bra.

I had closed the door behind me once I had put my clothes together in the bathroom folded on the chair. I had stripped my clothes off and I had entered inside the shower, as the water poured down on me from head to toe.

    Once I got in the shower, I had actually seen the bruises on my body that Noah had given to me. Sometimes I think back to that night. The night I felt like a throw doll. Like a puppet. Something he had thrown around. And I cry when I'm alone thinking about it. I wanted to tell Petra about it. Possibly Tess or Naomi. But I can't. Because I know exactly what would happen. Naomi would tell me to breakup with him. And then she'd tell me to get a restraining order against him. And I had just looked at how ugly it is. And to be fair, I know I'm being selfish with myself. But it's just all I have. The best is to love Noah with all my heart. He is the best I can be. He is all I want to be with. And every time he loses his temper with me or yells at me I been wanting to scream at him. But I didn't 'cause I love him. And I can't destroy what is best for the both of us.