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Chapter 25: The Anniversary

          Chapter 25: The Anniversary

Four Months Later.

Noah and I sat in the quiet empty room just as I feared of this awkward silence. I looked over at Dr. Jesser. And I just feared that maybe counseling was a waste of time. We decided on going to counseling to help with any issues we have. And there's definitely trust that we need to work on. I suggested it in order to help us. Noah did it because he thought it could help. My parents did this when they were fighting like crazy. And the only reason they've done it is because my dad was cheating on her. And basically that's all my dad did through the whole marriage was sleep with other women.

I saw Noah looking lost as if he had forgotten something. We weren't even holding hands. We been dating for five months. And to be fair since July our relationship got worse after that day. That day he went with Aya after our fight at our party. And that's what most of our fights are about. Jealousy and trust. He doesn't trust me with Matt. And I don't trust him with Aya. How am I not so sure that he hasn't slept with Aya? He spends a lot of time with her. And I only spend time with Matt for personal work out sessions because he's my physical trainer.

I felt like the room was spinning. It got crazy. And Noah still looked lost. He seemed to be completely stuck on the same thing that looks to be hard for him to get out of. Noah gazed at me for a split second. And I just couldn't get him to even speak to me. Maybe he's pissed that we have been doing this for six weeks straight. And I know this isn't exactly ideal for him. But it's worth to help us out through our stupid insecurities. Noah always thinks that I'm gonna hurt him like Kate. And also, Kate's name is mentioned in our sessions a lot because of his stupid insecurities. He thinks I'm gonna cheat on him like Kate did. And also, he doesn't trust me with other guys. And that I am so not okay with.

   The room was still full of silence. The only sound was ringing to my ears.

   "Whenever your ready, Noah." Dr. Jesser spoke, breaking the silence.

   Noah moved uncomfortably and he stared at me shortly and then put his full attention on Dr. Jesser and then he just cleared his throat returning back to reality as if he zoned out for no good reason.

   "She's always with Matt. And like I've said before... I don't trust her with any guys. I'm petrified that she will not be monogamous to me. I love Emma a lot. But I just fear she's going to leave me for someone else. And the mention is... Matt causes a grave threat to me. Even if he is just her physical personal trainer." Noah said, looking at Dr. Jesser the entire time, avoiding me altogether and not looking at me for even a second.

   I wanted to interrupt him at a point but I calmed myself and allowed him to speak his feelings out because deep down he's been bottling every dark deep emotion inside himself. As if he is popping pills and it's addicting to him to say it all.

  "And my guess is this because of history with your fiancée?" Dr. Jesser asked, holding onto a notebook writing every stupid little detail down.

  "Ex fiancée." I corrected.

  "Yes, Kate is the reason why I'm so paranoid of Emma cheating on me. And I'm possessive and manipulating and I'm a bit conniving." He admitted, and I sat with my arms crossed trying not to even want to hear the K word mentioned from his lips.

  "Were you and Kate serious? How serious were you when you were engaged to her?" Dr. Jesser asked, looking at Noah and I'm just here as a stupid observer unfortunately while we sit here talking about Noah and Kate's relationship.

  "We were very serious. We dated for a year before I popped the question to her. And I actually never had trust issues before... until after she cheated on me with my best friend." He said.