Only Mine {Book 2}| Completed

Epilogue

                               Epilogue

I felt like life was being torn from me. And on my mind constantly was Emma. I just kept thinking of her every moment when I'm not there at the hospital. Lara Jean, Ty and me had stopped at a shopping mall that I bought a few clothes at. And then we went to Ty's apartment and I immediately had showered.

In that shower, I had the events in the altercation with Noah and the gun replaying in my head. And I kept thinking about her almost being killed. And now I'm just in the shower hoping none of this haunts me. And I keep thinking about Emma. When I all I want to do is to be there for her. And my mind is all over the place. I feel the worst headache coming on. But I know everything will definitely be okay. I'm not gonna sulk my minutes of being able to breathe to be taken up my worst senseless anxiety.

After I got out of the shower, I got dressed, and then I had joined with Ty and Lara Jean and we talked for a little, but I was having too much anxiety about being far from Emma. So we had left going getting back in Ty's car and at one moment, I noticed them holding hands and I was melting into it. And on the way back to the hospital, we stopped at Chirps and Sunshine for some food. And I was rather okay eating there because they only sell breakfast food. And so, I needed something refreshing. It's a twenty-four seven drive through restaurant. But the inside is closed. It's merely midnight, and I decided on us getting food from the drive through. And I actually couldn't wait to eat breakfast. And the menu is packed with the best breakfast food.

I had actually been addicted to coffee for merely three days now. But I used to have this kale smoothie addiction for a while since I was fifteen. But now I have no other reason to. But I actually just went with the mango milkshake, an egg, cheese, sausage, bacon croissant and pancakes. It's the only appetite I had enough for.

And then after, they returned me back to the hospital. Edward was still there. My mom had left because she had to go to work. And I had been perfectly fine to just arrive at the hospital back to find Edward actually more in concern with Emma's condition. And Edward obviously wants me to be there with Emma when she wakes, so I had arrived back to the room.

When I arrived, I saw a nurse checking on her. She was taking her vitals, her blood pressure and her temperature. And then she removed the oxygen because she no longer needed it. And she nodded at me when she left the room. I returned back to the chair, and I stood right by Emma. And I felt her hand, and I wanted nothing but to tell her everything but only if I knew she heard them.

I had looked over and I saw the box. It was my box. The box of letters that I stashed. The letters that I never sent to Emma whilst she was in the mental institution. And I think mom or Edward brought them in. Probably Edward. And I guarantee he read them. And he brought them here. I knew I shouldn't have left them at Edward and mom's house in my old room. And it's obvious Edward saw the box and got curious. Not that I can blame him. And then he had actually read them and decided to bring them.

I opened the box that was a pale blue gigantic square box with a cover that I took off. And inside were over two hundred forty nine letters. Their all dated and signed by me. But I was too scared to send the letters to her.

"I'm gonna read you some of my letters. The letters I had never sent. I hope your okay with it." I addressed to her, no matter how unconscious she was, and I could see her just lying still, except when she breathes and is just off in her sleep, dreaming.

I took one letter. It's dated.

"September thirtieth, 2019." I read aloud to her. "My Dearest Tulip, I am terrified to speak of words on how I feel. It felt like yesterday you were wrapped in my embrace. I can't believe in your in that dreadful place. And while your there, I want you to remember my voice. And my heartbeat every second of the day. For I am, adored by every moment I share. I was looking forward to seeing you on every school vacation. To be able to run with you in the sunshine, kiss you in the sunset and to hold you at dawn. And I'm crushed that we can't see each other. When you get out of there, I promise... we will see each other. And I will be right there when you get out of that black hole. And I promise I will love you. And even if you decide not to answer in letters... you are and forever will always be my Elizabeth Bennett. Love always, your Kit."

   I actually cried, remembering writing this letter. It was actually the first letter I wrote in the worst state in my mind. And as of a sudden, I sobbed quietly and I looked over seeing her asleep and she looked like sleeping beauty. A Princess or a maiden eating to be rescued.

   "You make my happiness, Em. Your obviously the world to me. And your obviously the bravest woman I know, my love." I leaned over to her and I gently pressed my lips to hers, and there was nothing. She obviously didn't kiss back. But I was only awaiting for the stupid painkillers to go away so she could wake. "There's more letters, Em. And I will keep reading them until I see your brown eyes."

    I took out another letter from the box. And I smiled not bracing the tears falling from my eyes. And I had stared at the letter. This was probably the hundredth letter I had written.

   "April third, 2020." I started. "My Dear Tulip, I will not say it twice but I will say it a million times. It is how much I truly love you Emma. And you had captured me from the start as I had captured you as well. I share no shame. I share no hatred to what happened to us. I only care that my heart will return to you. I have forever had and always will be deeply and madly in love, Emma. You have taught me such greatest lessons. I have made plenty of mistakes in my past. But if I happen to make them, I want to make them with you. And I tell you, I will run to you a million times just waiting to see you, my dear Tulip. And I cry in the night, missing you. Your in my sleep. Your everywhere that I turn. And I cannot escape the ghost of you. I am around the currents and the violent ocean of screams. And right now I'm in my stupid dorm hoping to get my own place, wishing we could share an apartment together. I wanted to see you graduate high school. Get accepted into a good college with the best scholarship. And I'm dying inside without you. And I will do nothing more, but want you every waking second as long as I breathe the spring air in San Francisco. I truly need you now and forever Emma. And by time, you shall know this. I cannot live without you. And I need you now more than ever. Forever, your Kit. P.S still stick to your promise to never fall in love with anyone else. As I will always be yours. Forever."

   As I heard the quiet in the room. I heard the silence. I got up and I opened the blinds and I saw the night darkness outside while it was pouring rain out. And I actually just stared, watching. And suddenly I felt a chill enter into the room. And I had looked back over to Emma. Her heart rate had slowed up. And when I looked at her hand, I had returned over to her immediately and I embraced her hand with mine as I kissed her hand. And I had felt her heart beat stronger than ever and hammering.

   I brushed my hand against her cheek and I saw her sleeping peacefully. And as I felt nothing and I had lowered down to her and I thought of seeing her smile that I missed. And I had moved over to low my head down and I reached my hand to cup her cheek in my hand and I gently kissed her, passionately and beautifully.

   I wanted this moment to last forever and for it to never stop. And right after, I slowly pulled my lips away and just as I was pulling away, I heard her breathing heavier. And almost all of a sudden, I saw her lying there, and I noticed her eyelids flickering a bit and she took a deep breathe, and she stared up, gazing at me in wonder.

   "Emma," I gasped tearfully, and I glanced down at her brown eyes.

                             THE END.