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Chapter 65: New York Part 4

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             Chapter 65: New York Part 4

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   "I wanna hear your voice, I wanna see your smile, I wanna see you love me, I wanna make every waking moment with you than without you. And even if you are my husband, I rather it be forever than never. And I still feel the connection of love, hate, beauty, jealousy and happiness. My only love is with you, Harry, my loving forever Husband. And I, your Priscilla." I read aloud, sitting on the sofa with Emma lying her head on my lap as I read, stroking her soft beautiful hair on the tips of my fingers as my other hand held the book of Love In Paradise.

    The most interesting thing we could do while inside as the days fled since the rest of the week started to flow by faster than expected. I have been talking to my mother and Edward once a day since we arrived in New York. And I just let them know we're okay. I just wish Emma would make amends with her mother, I know they both had an argument and I know it's because Noah has clearly gotten between Emma and her mother, and it makes me feel fragile.

The only thing I do know is that Emma should decide the moment she returns back to decide if she's going back to Noah or moving on and maybe being with me. I know she has issues on leaving people she cares about. She leaves people but returns to them like there wasn't an issue to process them to begin with. But I don't want to be the other guy, the rebound or the side guy or whatever. At this point, Emma and I have been having too much sex that's it's probably going to kill us. And that's why I get worried, because I get too attached. And I'm afraid I won't be able to keep away from her. I'm sleeping with her, getting attached and there's a chance she's going back to Noah. To a man who is a covert narcissist. A guy who has fucked up problems. And Emma thinks she can fix him. But this man cannot be saved. He is who he is. Just like Josh. He has no saving either. He is a rapist, he has power with money and control with businesses. And it's actually disgusting while thinking about it. I remember Ty saying something that Josh had a way to manipulate the good, and control the ones like him. Only a crazy psycho like Josh can do something like that.

I have never been too badly obsessed with what is actually right beside me every day since I been vacationing in a mindset relief. And that's while I'm here with Emma. We aren't sleeping in different bedrooms, Emma sleeps in the bed with me, and sometimes I wake from my nightmares or I just can't sleep and the only thing I can do is look at Emma as she sleeps and I start talking to her. I say things that I trust her with. Things I haven't said to her while she's conscious. But I'm willing to open up to her about my past. It's hard to talk about it while it's in my nightmares.

I closed the book while in my hand and I placed it down. We got through over sixteen hundred pages in less than two days. And I actually hate the ending every time. I hate that this book leaves you with what you didn't want. This married woman stays in an abusive marriage while with her son who she loves and then, she is about to leave him, but she decides to stay and her husband still abuses her and eventually he beats her so badly that she dies from domestic violence. I used to think of Maya Jude whenever I read this, but now I think of Emma. I know that Noah is abusive. I saw how Noah and Emma were at Christmas. He was overbearing as if Emma faked a smile on her face to make him happy.

I actually hate to think of Noah. I won't have to think about him once Emma leaves him for good and chooses me and not him. And then there is no more Noah. And then everything will be fine.

"This story kinda gives me anxiety." I commented aloud, hoping Emma would have a few things to say, but she stayed mute as if she fell asleep but she was awake as if she was lost somewhere else. "Em, are you okay?"