DWEO : Zhanyi MPREG

50. Uncertainty

 Yibo POV

I went back to work a couple of days later and so did Zhan; he has been busy ever since we got back. He came home later than usual one evening, I sat with him on the couch; he looked unpleased about something. I looked at him questioningly "I have a business trip to New York in two days." He said, "Oh" I said, understanding his mood now "So soon?" I asked.

He nodded "Unfortunately I have to go, the guys from Jenkins Corp have agreed to meet us there and sign the deal. My presence is needed." He said.

"How long will you be gone?" I asked, trying to keep the sadness out of my voice. Now I knew how he felt like when I had to go to training, leaving is better than being left.

"3 days minimum, we still have a couple of things to sort out in person before we can make it official." He said scrutinizing me; I just nodded. 

"I hate leaving you little one," he said resting his forehead on mine, damn it. I was trying to be strong. "I know, and I'm going to miss you like crazy. But you have to go and I understand that." I said, hoping my voice didn't betray me. Hell, would I always be like this when Zhan goes on one of these trips? If so then I was in trouble.

He gave me a slight smile kissing me, and then I remembered something "Will Bianca be going with you?" I asked and he paused.

"Yes, she always accompanies me on these trips." He said eyeing me. I frowned but nodded, of course, she does; she's his PA, you're being ridiculous I thought to myself. So what if she goes with him? As he said, they've gone on these trips together before and nothing happened then, what makes this time any different?

Even as I tried to reason with myself, the thought still upset me. Zhan gave me a knowing look and smiled gently "I don't stray little one, I'm a well-mannered pet, you have me on a leash wherever I go" he said.

I smiled at his efforts to make me feel better, "Nice analogy" I said, it was more than I deserved. And dealing with my insecurities was probably starting to wear on him too. Gosh, I was already acting like the jealous wife and I'm not even married to him yet.

I shook my head sadly, for some reason I started crying, he wiped my tears away completely baffled. He must just run while he still has a chance I thought. "Good luck with me Zhan, you're going to need it." I said sadly, he smiled in understanding and a little relief "Thanks" he teased. I chuckled shakily

"I love you Yibo, I don't mind reassuring you of that every day." He added fervently. I wiped the fresh tears away and gave him an apologetic look "Sorry, I swear I won't always be like this." I said chagrinned; I didn't know why my emotions were all over the place tonight.

"I know" He said, "You're stubborn, strong-willed and independent, I like knowing you need me." He added stroking my cheek. "I always need you," I whispered pointing out the obvious, feeling like a little child. Didn't he know I breathed him?

"Then I'm here," he said embracing me; I smiled trying not to cry at his tenderness. This man was unbelievable "You're amazing you know that?" I asked hiccupping; he chuckled letting me go.

"So I've heard," he said grabbing my hand and kissing it, "Lets go to bed" I let him lead me upstairs feeling like the luckiest person on earth.

After saying goodbye to Zhan, I immediately went back into the house and called Meng Ziyi, I was going to need a distraction for the next couple of days and she was perfect for the job.

I smiled as I opened the front door for her, hugging her; I felt slightly better now that she was here. "I got here as fast as I could, what's the emergency?" she asked, I rolled my eyes at her exaggeration; I told her it wasn't urgent. 

"Zhan went to New York, business trip." I said and understanding crossed her eyes "Oh" she said, then she laid her hand on my forehead and pulse "Are you okay, you still breathing?" she asked playfully. I chuckled slapping her hand away "You're such an idiot" I teased, she sat down on the couch laughing hysterically.

I sat next to her laughing too "I need you to distract me, plus the fact that he's going with Bianca you'll probably need to bleach my brain." I said. She abruptly stopped laughing "What?" she asked; wearing the same expression I had that night I asked Zhan about it. 

"Apparently they go on these trips together all the time" I said shaking my head "I just didn't take it well when he told me." I added still embarrassed by my reaction.

"What did you do?" she asked, her eyes narrowing.

"I don't know why but I just started crying for no reason. But I think I was just embarrassed about being so insecure and needy with him." I said sadly "Poor guy, he probably thought I was losing my mind." Meng Ziyi shook her head "What if that's not the reason why, you said you could feel when something bad was going to happen right?" she asked.

I froze then chuckled uneasily "It doesn't work that way Meng Ziyi" I said, normally I would get an unnatural cold shiver down my spine. But that night I just cried pointlessly, did it have a meaning I wasn't aware of?

She shrugged and dismissed it with her hand "I was just guessing, I must be wrong. I didn't mean to freak you out, forget I said anything." She said. I just nodded, shoving the thought out of my mind.

Like Meng Ziyi promised, she and I did, every little insignificant thing we could think of. For 2 days straight she just exhausted me with anything and everything. I appreciated her efforts, but I would always come back to an empty bedroom and I'd be depressed all over again. I had trouble falling asleep without Zhan, and the bed felt even bigger and colder without him in it.

I avoided calling him, using time difference as an excuse but I knew better. I wanted him to call me first; I didn't want to impose. He should be able to take care of business without worrying if I was still in one piece or not. I chuckled to myself as I went into the closet and wore one of his shirts, I must've lost my mind for real then.

I sat on the couch of the balcony and inhaled the lovely and familiar scent on the collar. How on earth did you cope without me? I thought to myself.

I couldn't survive a month like this, ever. Then again Zhan probably didn't need me to hold his hand every day to feel better. I watched the sunset, the sound of my phone ringing startled me; I picked it up "Hello" I said

"Hey little one, I feel neglected." Came a deep teasing voice "Zhan" I breamed.