DWEO : Zhanyi MPREG

95. Begin Again

 Zhan POV

I dropped Sizhui and Lucy off a tA-li and A-mi's place; they loved to visit them just as much as Zhoucheng and Ziyi. They also loved having them over. I came back home to get some work done.

I was able to do that for a while until thoughts of Yibo invaded my mind again. I sighed in exasperation. Seeing him yesterday didn't do my sanity any justice, I was only just reminded why I missed him so much. 

And how much I wanted him, it took everything I had to keep my eyes off him but his appearance made my entire body ache. I groaned trying to push him out of my mind and a wave of uneasiness washed over me.

The more I tried ignoring this feeling was the more it came. I shook my head and suddenly I couldn't get rid of this voice in my head telling me something is wrong. Something is wrong with Yibo.

I'm losing my freaking mind I thought to myself in slight anger. I willed myself to forget him, but the feeling never left me, I could even feel the slight tremor in my hand. I curse out loud then pulled out my phone, calling him; and it sent me straight to voice mail. I cursed again getting off my chair, just then my phone rang.

"Xiao Zhan." I answered impatiently,

"Hello Mr. Xiao, this is Doctor Jenson from Yikong Hospital." A man said, I slowly sat back down on my chair. "Xiao Yibo has been admitted to our hospital. He was involved in a car accident." He said, "How is he?" I asked, my voice steady as my world came crashing down.

"I'm sorry but we don't prefer to discuss our patient's condition over the phone." He said, "I understand, I'll be right over." I said and hung up. My head slipped into my hands, the thought that I might just be losing him all over again hit me like a ton of bricks, the pain beginning again.

I stood up and went out of my study; he had to be okay, for all of our sakes. I came across Fufu in the hallway and she could sense something was wrong because she stopped me "Where are you going?" she asked.

"To the hospital." I said and her brows furrowed in question "Yibo was in a car accident." I clarified and she gasped dropping the vase she was carrying "Is he..." "I'm going to find out." I cut her off starting down the stairs.

I got in my Aston Martin and drove out. I chuckled without humor, here I was speeding to his side, with the way I feel about him it was bound to happen one way or another. I arrived at the hospital and sat in the waiting room anxiously, "Mr. Xiao?" I looked up at the nurse "Yes." I said.

"Doctor will be with you shortly." She said and I nodded. Ten minutes later a man in a white coat walked towards me. I stood up and he offered his hand "Mr. Xiao, I'm Doctor Jenson." He said and I shook it nodding.

"He is fine Mr. Xiao." He said and I closed my eyes for a second in relief "He just sustained minor cuts and bruises, nothing fatal. He's unconscious but with the sedatives, we gave him he'll come around tomorrow morning." He added.

My brows furrowed "What happened doctor?" I asked.

"I'm not sure but from the report, they gave me he was just at the wrong place at the wrong time." He said "he was crossing the road when the driver of a van lost control of it heading straight for him." he added. I breathed in a rush "He tried getting out of the way, and that probably is what saved his life. But it wasn't quick enough to avoid impact." He said and I flinched.

"Had he not moved?" I asked and his eyes tightened "At the speeds at which the car was going to collide with him, it most likely would've killed him or paralyzed him." he said.

"Can I see him?" I asked, "We're still running a couple of tests, he'll come out of the ER tonight, you'll see him then." He said and I nodded stiffly. "Thank you." I said and he nodded then he walked away with some nurse who gave him a file. I sat back down and pulled out my phone.

I'd finished sipping coffee when I saw a couple exiting while carrying their newborn; I then remembered the day Sizhui was born. That was one of the happiest days of my life. I threw the empty cup in a trashcan and just then a different nurse came to me.

"Mr. Xiao?" she asked and I nodded "Follow me." she added. We got into the elevators and went further up then she left me at the door of ward 3, she smiled and walked away. I opened the door and walked into the silent room, the only sound came from the EKG. I walked over to Yibo's bedside and pulled up a chair.

I watched him motionless form; he hardly looked alive. I studied his face; he had a small scrape on his forehead and his lower lip had a small cut. I couldn't see the rest of his but his arms had a few bruises and bandages.

I wasn't prepared for the throng of emotions I would feel seeing him like this. In the midst of everything, the hurt and heartbreak between us, he almost died. Died on our kids and me. I took his soft hand in mine and kissed it, never looking away from his face.

"Why must you torture me this way, little one?" I whispered. An hour later a knock came on the door and Ziyi walked in, "Hey." She said to me. "My God." She whispered her brows furrowed in worry, gently cupping Yibo's cheek.

She grabbed a chair and sat on her other side "Thanks for calling me," she said and I nodded "What did the doctor say?" she asked.

"He's fine, just unconscious. They say he'll come around tomorrow." I said looking at Yibo. "Where's Sizhui and Lucy?" she asked.

"At A-li and A-mi's" I said and she paused "Did you tell them?" she asked and I shook my head "I don't think telling them is such a good idea, they'll lose it." I said and she slightly smiled.

"Yeah, I think Yibo would want them to worry either." She said. Ziyi paused for a while eyeing me, but I kept my gaze on Yibo as if he'd open his eyes if I kept watching. "He didn't do it you know." Ziyi said suddenly and I met her gaze in question.

"The whole Xuan thing." She said and I raised my eyebrow at her. "He loves you, I'm positive he'd never do something like this." She added and my gaze narrowed "I thought so too." I said "But he looked me in the eye and told me himself, what am I supposed to believe then?" I asked, and she gave an exasperated sigh

"He's hiding something." She whispered almost to herself. "Like what?" I probed, "I don't know, he won't tell me and he keeps avoiding me," she said, talking about this only brought back unpleasant memories. 

Ziyi wanted to believe the best in her friend and I wanted to believe the best in my bobo. I would've agreed with her if I didn't watch him leave with Xuan myself.

"Ziyi look, he's your best friend and you're looking out for him. I respect that." I said "But leave this alone, he's not telling you anything because there is nothing to tell. He did what he said he did, we are powerless to change that." I added.

"So you're just going to give up on him?" She asked and my mood darkened "What do you want me to do Ziyi?" I asked, besides she wasn't exactly crawling back to me begging for forgiveness. "He's the one who didn't honor his vows, I could leave and never come back." I added with slight anger.

"But you're here right?" she said and I watched her silently, she shook her head "I'm sorry, that was out of line." She added then let the topic drop. She stayed for a while then left, I for one remained.

I woke up, running my hand over my stiff neck. I checked my watch and it was past 5 am. I then started debating if I should stay until he wakes up or leave before he does. Part of me wanted to be here when he did, and another part of me was still bitter and angry over what happened.

I love him, if this could not change that, nothing will. But him sleeping with Xuan was a knife to my heart; it left a wound I don't think I'll ever heal from.