I sighed as I stared intensely at my monitor. Me and the guys were playing some GTA, when I started to think about my boyfriend. Well, ex boyfriend. I mean, yeah he cheated on me, and yeah I broke up with him, but, some part of me just hates being alone.
I was never fond of being alone, but I have bad social anxiety, and I'm just too awkward for anybody's liking. That's why I used to live with Luke, but he moved out a couple months ago to go help his mom with their family business. I lived with Chad, my ex, for about three months. But now that he's gone, it's been so quiet and lonely these past few weeks. And honestly, I'm scared of it.
Scared that I'll always be alone, scared that no one will truly love me. I felt tears well up in my eyes. I sniffled as I tried to wipe them away.
"Delirious, are you okay?" I jumped a little at the sudden noise. I quickly sniffled my nose up, so they couldn't hear the sadness in my voice.
"Hmm? Yeah Van, I'm good." I said trying to sound sincere. He hesitated before humming in response. The rest of the time we played the mission, I kept spacing out. When they asked me if I was okay, I blamed it on my lack of sleep. After the session, everyone left the call except me and Evan.
"Hey, Jon, is something on your mind?" He asked.
"No, why do you ask?" I said, taking a sip of my coffee. He stayed silent for a few seconds before responding.
"Del, I can tell something's wrong, I've known you for five years."
I said nothing, as I fiddled with the mug in my hands. He sighed.
"Delly, you know if something's bothering you, you can tell me anything, right?" He said leaning closer to the mic.
"Mhm." I said. We then sat there for a few minutes not talking. I finally sighed and sat up in my chair, moving my microphone closer to me.
"Evan, my...." No I shouldn't tell him.
"My...... girlfriend,"I cringed at the word "her and I broke up."I said, felling tears well up in my eyes again. I heard a small sigh from the other side of the call.
"I'm so sorry Jonathan.....um, I know how it feels. My girlfriend and I separated a while back. It was pretty bad, we got in a huge argument and everything." He said calmly.
"Oh my god, Evan why didn't you tell us?!" I said sitting up. He chuckled a little.
"It wasn't that big of a deal. Plus, just playing with you guys already makes me feel better." He said. I could hear the smile on his face. I smiled as well and nodded, even though he can't see me. I then hear a loud gasp erupt from Evan.
"Hey Delirious, how would you like to meet up with eachother! Just you and me!" He said exitedley. My eyes widened at the proposal. He must of heard the silence from my end, cause he quickly continued.
"Uh, th-that is if you want to, I get it if you don't! I mean you have a image to keep. I understand if you're not re-" I giggled a little catching him off guard. He chuckled back.
"What?" He said confused.
"Nothing, it's just that your too caring and nice to have a friend like me." I said quietly but loud enough that he was able to hear.
"What do you mean?! Your the bestest friend I could ask for!" He yelled, making my face turn red a little. Shit, no Jon, not Evan! I silently cursed myself. I then sighed and said the one thing I thought I'd never say in a million years.
"Evan, wanna hang out?"
Evans pov-
I sat in the park impatiently. Jonathan agreed to come hang out with me face to face, and I was over the moon excited! None of us have ever seen him besides Luke, and I was so happy he trusted me enough with his identity. As I started to scroll through twitter to pass time, I glanced up to see a man cross the road and head over to the park.
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bbs one shots
Random*Rewrote the description because the one I had for two years was awful 😭* Anyways, yes this is a BBS one shots book. I will say, the begining chapters are completely ass but I'm too damn sentimental and don't want to take them down, nor edit them t...
