love a broken girl {SteveRogersXReader} {BuckyXReader} {StuckyXReader}

chapter 19 {home alone}

*tw mention of rape*

you laid in bed with Steve and Bucky, just cuddling up to each other. "can you actually legally marry more than one person?" Steve asked randomly. "i have no idea, are you making plans already" you said jokingly. "well one day i want to marry you 2" he said casually. you never talked about this kind of stuff with him before, so you were surprised that he brought it up. "i would like that too, one day" Bucky said as the 3 of you sat up. "i can't wait to see you walking down the aisle with a beautiful white dress on" Bucky said smiling. it was weird you never saw Bucky as the marriage type of guy. "yeah and the 2 of you looking handsome in your suites" you said picturing it. "yes, and then we can live in an old farm and have 2 kids" Steve said. you fell silent looking down to your hands. "did i say something wrong?" Steve asked looking at you. "is it too soon?" Bucky asked. "no it's not that, it's just" you said as tears filled your eyes. "hey what's wrong?" Steve asked you. "i uhh, i don't know if i can have kids" you say softly as tears rolled down your cheeks. "why do you think that?" Bucky asked you. "it's uhh" you hesitated to bring it up, what if they leave you if they found out you can't have kids.

"hey it's okay, you can tell us" Steve said as he saw you struggling, grabbing your hands comforting you. "do you remember why hydra raped me?" you said looking at Bucky, as you saw tears forming in his eyes as he thought about that day. "n-no i'm sorry, i don't remember a lot of that day" he said looking down. "they, they did it because" you said looking down to your hands. "they did it because i was pregnant" you say looking up to the 2 man. Bucky's eyes shoot up at you. "what, how?" he said not knowing what to say, letting your words sink in. "was it.." he asked, scared to finish his sentence. "yes, it was yours" you say looking into his hurt eyes. "i had been feeling sick for a few days, when a hydra agent noticed i gained weight. and you know the hydra diet, it only causes you to lose weight not gain it. so when they put 2 and 2 together, they removed it" you say softly. "i just don't know what and how much they removed" you say looking to your hands again. Bucky was still in shock at what he just heard, Steve pulled the 2 of you in for a hug. "I'm sorry" you said. "it's okay" Steve said "if you want to know, we can have it checked out at the hospital". "I don't know if i want to know, what if i can't have kids, i'm not ready to hear that yet" you said as a tear rolled down your face. "it's okay, we'll do this together" Steve said "even if you can't have kids, then we'll just get a dog" he said making you laugh. "are you okay Buck?" you asked him. "yeah it's just." he said not finishing his sentence. "i understand" you say, knowing he just needed some time to let it sink in.

"okay so now where on the topic of marrying, does that mean we're officially together, together now?" Bucky asked after a while. "yes" Steve said confidently "I'm done hiding this, I want to kiss you in front of everyone Buck" he said making Bucky blush. "you sure?" Bucky asked him. "absolutely" Steve replied as he kissed Bucky passionately. this was really big for them. they grew up thinking it was wrong to be with another man, but now they were embracing it. they looked over at you, you had the biggest smile on your face, you were so proud of them. "so what do you say?" Steve asked you. "ready to join us?" Bucky asked smiling. "there is nothing i want more" you said pulling them both in kissing them. after a make out session the 3 of you fell asleep in each other's arms.

you were woken up by Tony talking over the comms "all avengers meeting room now". the 3 of you quickly got dressed and walked over to the meeting room. "you 2 stay outside" Tony said to you and Bucky. "what, why?" you asked him irritated. "because the 2 of you are not coming on this mission" your dad said before closing the door in your faces. "not this again" you say out loud. "let's go" Bucky said taking your hand in his, taking you with him to the Livingroom to wait. "what do you think it's about?" you asked Bucky. "well seeing we're not welcome, it has probably something to do with hydra" he answered. "but why can't we come, we want to kick there asses more than any of them do" you said leaning into him, putting your head on Bucky's shoulder. "well last time they almost killed you, so maybe it's better we're not involved" Bucky replied putting his arm around you. "I'm sorry i didn't tell you about, you know what" you said softly to him. "it's okay, i guess i just find it a weird idea we could have had a kid by now" he said. "yeah could you imagine raising a baby together back then" you said smiling up to him. "no i actually can't" Bucky said smiling back. "me neither" you said as you both laughed at the thought, realizing it was probably better this way.