love a broken girl {SteveRogersXReader} {BuckyXReader} {StuckyXReader}

chapter 41 {new me}

[ a week later]

you wake up sweating and screaming. you had a nightmare again. you didn't had nightmares that intense in a while, but they returned when Steve left. the stress of not knowing where he is and if he's safe, worries you. you get out of bed, not able to sleep anymore. you check your phone and see a text from Peter [hey, can i come by tomorrow. we can just hang out. i just want to make sure you're okay] the text said. you haven't talked to anyone the last couple days. you dad was probably mad at you, because you didn't heard from him after that day. you text Peter back, actually craving to talk to someone. [ yes, i would like that, you can come over today at 10] you text back. you look at the time it's 4;30. you sigh and walk downstairs. normally you had work today but you called in sick again, to the point your boss called you to ask if you were okay, you just told him you had a bad cold.

you made yourself a cup of tea and watched the news, luckily no news about the escaped avengers, which probably meant they were somewhere safe right now. you turn the tv off and look around you. it felt so empty now, less home like. your eyes fall once again on that one picture of your 2 favorite men and you tear up. why could nothing ever work out for you. you get dressed taking your time doing so. your eyes fall on Steve sweater, there was a note laying on it. [because i know you love it so much, love you x] the note said. you smile and put the sweater on with some skinny jeans. you put on some make-up which always made you feel a bit better, doing your make up always calmed you down. you put your hear in a high ponytail, before you ate some breakfast already feeling a bit better.

there was a knocked on the door. "come in its open" you yell and Peter walks in. "hey" he said walking up to you hugging you tightly, which was all it took to let tears stream down your face. "I'm here for you" he said not letting go of you as you cried. "I'm sorry" you said drying your tears as you let go of him. "don't apologize" he says "i know your life isn't easy". "well that's an understatement" you say jokingly making you and Peter laugh. the 2 of you sit down on the couch after you grabbed 2 cups of tea. "so how are you" you ask him. "I'm good, i want you to know i'm here for you y/n" Peter said looking at you with an serious look on his face. "thanks Peter" you say, softly smiling at him.

"so Steve was staying with you?" he asked and you nod. "for how long?" Peter asked. "a few days, well a few weeks, i think" you say. "are you guys back together?" he asked you. "not at first, he asked me to be his girlfriend the night before he left. but i have no idea where we stand now" you say looking down. "I'm sure it all going to be over soon" Peter says reassuring you. "I really hope so" you say looking at him. "did you help break everyone out?" he asks you. "yes" you say to him "I helped Steve break them out". "do you know where they are now?" he asked. you say nothing, which told Peter enough.

you sigh hard "did uhhh, did you talk to my dad after" you ask Peter. "yes" he replies shortly. "what did he say, he's mad at me, isn't he?" you say looking down, fidgeting with your hands. Peter places his hand on your hands "he will understand, but right now he just feels like everyone is lying to him" Peter says. "well if i had told him he would have called the cops on them, i did what i had to do" you say to Peter. "i understand" Peter says "and Tony will too eventually, he just needs some time. you know what come to dinner tonight, you can see their house and May is dying to see you and i'm sure Pepper would like to see you too". "i don't know Peter" you say. "come on y/n, you can leave anytime you want, it's just around the corner. if you want to leave i personally walk you home" he says. "okay" you say. Peter left 2 hours later after you talked some more and played some video games.

you stood in front of the mirror in a black dress, this will do tonight, you think to yourself.

your phone vibrates and you saw a text from peter [ i'm here, don't let me wait outside too long, it's cold out]. you text him back [the door is open, 5 more minutes]. you hear the front door open. "I'm upstairs" you yell. you hear him walk up the stairs. "hi" you say to him. "hey, you ready?" he asks. "as ready as i'll ever be" you say sighing. "you look pretty" Peter says as he stares as you. "thanks" you say smiling at him. you quickly put on some shoes and walk with Peter downstairs. you lock your door behind you and walk to your dad's new house. he now really lived close to you, you just needed to walk down the street to the right and you were there. it was just a 2 minute walk. you walk up their driveway which was another 2 minute walk up to the house. it was a really big house, clearly fit for a big family. and the garden was big too with a small pond behind it.

you got nervous as you stood before the door, Peter squeezed your hand, letting you know he was here for you. Peter rang the doorbell and Pepper opened it. "hey" she said excitedly as she saw you, she hugged you tightly. as she lets go of you, you softly smile at her. "I'm glad you're here" she says. "come on i show you around" she says letting you in.

the house was really big yet it looked cozy and there was a homey feel to it which you loved. you wished one day you could buy a house like this and start a family of your own, if you would even be able to do that. "hey, glad you could make it" May said hugging you. "hey May" you said hugging her back. "hey Pep, where ar-" your dad stops in his tracks as he sees you. "hi dad" you say nervously. he ignores you and turns to Pepper asking her where the napkins where. you felt tears well up in your eyes, was he really that stubborn not even saying hi to his own daughter. you get it, you lied to him but he didn't even say hi to his own fucking daughter.

you storm outside, hurt, sad and angry. you felt like you were truly on your own. you walk over to the small pond in their backyard and you sit down on the edge of the water, pulling your legs up embracing your knees with your arms. a few minutes later your dad walks up to you. "diner is ready" he said coldly. "well go enjoy it with your new family" you say angry and hurt. "y/n?" he says sounding sad as he hears the hurt in your voice. "go away" you say as a tear rolls down your cheek. "y/n i just" he says. you stand up and face him. "you're just what dad, an asshole, a shit dad. yes you fucking are!" you yell at him, angry at what he did. "you fucking lied to me y/n!" he yelled back. "you called the fucking cops on them, they are your fucking friends and you locked them up!" you yell at him angrier at him than you initially thought "you took him away from me!".

"y/n i" your dad says but you won't let him finish. "i have nightmares every night because i'm worried if he's safe, if he's even still alive, and that's all on you! you are the reason the avengers have gone to shit, with these stupid accords and why?! because you are not man enough to see what YOU did wrong. you signed those accords so you're not the one responsible for your actions anymore, you can put the blame on them is anything goes wrong. you are weak!" you spit out yelling, letting all your anger out on him. "get of my property" Tony spits back. "just because i'm telling the truth, the truth you are to blind to see. you really are selfish, goodbye dad" you say as you start walking away but you stop and turn around again. "i hope you're happy now. just be sure you treat your new daughter better than me or she will leave you too, eventually" you say, not yelling anymore. you walk away after you see him stand frozen in place as tears stream down his face. you storm off. "y/n where are you go-" Peter asks. "have fun, with your new perfect little family" you say angry, walking home.

you slam the door behind you as you start to cry, now you truly lost everyone you ever cared about; Steve, Bucky, Peter, your dad. "oh god" you whisper to yourself as you realize red skull was right, they all left eventually, maybe not all willingly but they were gone. you grab the chair and throw it though your house, letting all the anger and sadness out.

but after a few minutes you picked yourself up, you've been through worse, you can do this alone. you realized it was time for a new you. not the y/n you were at the avengers, not the y/n you were at hydra but someone in between. yes the new y/n could do both. starting tomorrow you were gonna be everything YOU wanted to be.