Scared of us (meradd/ meddison)

She is... OMG hot

Meredith POV:

"I can't believe this is happening again! She comes into my life mess it up with her amazingness and her beautifulness and- and her magical amazingly beautiful smile and-"I complain to my person

"Yeah I am not totally sure those words really exist but ok continue please" says Cristina with a bottle of tequila in her hand "yeah... right! Uhm... " I try to continue "you don't remember what you were saying do you?" Cristina ask me and I nod " you were talking about how Addison messed your life up again" she explained " oh! Yeah! So, she comes into my life with all the things I said before and than all of a sudden she leaves for who knows what reason! I mean the first time it hurt but the second time... after she said I love you... and I thought we were gonna be together you know?" I try to explain to her even tho I am not really sure of what I was explaining "yeah but the first time you ended up in a hospital bed! What about this time, uh? Do you want me to buy a grave?" Cristina asked a little sarcastic but I think that in this moment she would actually buy it "No Cristina! But I do want you to buy me other tequila because I need to be drunker than... this... to be okay" "hey! Look!" Cristina exclaims as I check around me to see what was she talking about "what? What look at what?" I ask "another NOT word coming out of your drunk mouth tonight!" She says joking "ah. ah. Very funny!"

We went on for hours... or not I don't really remember, you know? Anyway the day after that I woke up with an headache it was sooo bad! "God Cristina don't let me drink this much ever again!" I shouted "yeah we both know that you already changed your mind about that" as she said that I nod even tho I don't want her to be right

*later that day at Seattle grace*

As I arrived the hospital I see her.
Oh god when I say she is probably more beautiful than every other day and I hate that I can't tell her because, you know! She duped me last night
"Oh god..."
"Oh god Mer, stop staring at her! She duped you! It is O-V-E-R" Cristina said complaining about me admiring that gorgeous woman(who dumped me several times,but that is ok if she is that hot and gorgeous and beautiful and-  " hey guys, what are you staring at!?" Asks Izzie as she walks over with Alex " mc. Hot" Cristina quickly answer him "well... oh god she is even hotter than usual!" Alex exclaims "yeah right!" I say as Izzie and Cristina both hits Alex on the arm "what the hell Cristina??" Alex ask frustrated "why me your girl hit you too, it's not just me!" Cristina say defending herself "yeah but she has a reason! What's your reason?" Alex ask "well... I... Meredith used to date her but she duped her!" Cristina tries to figure out an excuse "ok, fine! 1) I am right here! 2) we never exactly dated... 3) I can't figure out what is making Addie hotter can you guys help me??" I say all in one breath " yeah sure!" Alex says as Cristina and Izzie both say "no Mer!" With a 'isn't it obvious' look on their faces "I think it's the hair, they look different" Alex blurt out "do not encourage her please!" Iz says "no... I already thought about that but last night, when she left me for the second time they looked exactly the same... maybe the dress?" I try to figure out "Mer stop you're torturing yourself!" Iz tells me "who is torturing himself?" Asks Lexie as she joins us "no one!" I say "Mer" Iz, Alex and Cristina all says together "okay... well that seams familiar!how id she doing that this time?" Lexie says "I am not torturing myself! I am just trying to find out why Addison is hotter today!" I say "yeah and I am helping!" Alex say right after I finished my sentence "well I know why she is hotter today!" Lexie says "oh really!? Why?" I say frenetically "well yesterday Derek was talking about an arrival at Seattle it was someone from his and Addison's past and than I overheard a nurse talk and turns out that he is the man Addison cheated on Derek with Mark Sloan who probably still is in love with her and I guess that maybe she could feel tha same but dk so..." Lexie says as fast as she could probably

As I hear that I run into an on call room to cry myself out and I cling to the only way I know to feel 'better' so I looked the door and tale the razor file and just... cut.

A/n.
Ok hi everyone so... nothing actually just hope you liked it and also tell me what you would like to happen next <333