Scared of us (meradd/ meddison)

Everything is gonna be great!

Addison POV:

Ok well I guess being alive is... good! Yeah, good!

They told me I was asleep for 5 month, and Mer' wedding was planned for may which is in a month...

She didn't really mention her relationship with Derek, when she kissed me I thought 'yeiii they broke up' but than I saw her hugging Derek and he kissed her on the head , witch by the way it's way better than on the lips because it's like she's already his, anyway now I am not so sure they broke up... and I can't stop wondering what about us now? I mean why would they break up? I was dying, so she could not have been with me anyways...

I don't blame her tho... as soon as I woke up they called mark in and he laid next to me and thanked heaven I was alive, for like 5 hours...

I am just gonna ask her out easy...

This time I won't be scared of us, not this time... I want to be with her... more than anything in the world... so, I am just gonna ask her!

And hope for the best...

*some hours later*

Meredith is walking in right now

Oh god I am so nervous

"Hey... how're you doing?" Mer asks grabbing my hand
"I am fine, actually I was wondering if... you and Derek were still a thing... you know" I ask her, I am totally digressing, but I think I have been clear "oh god you are terrible at that" Meredith says laughing "what? What? I just asked a question..." I say super anxious "yeah, Addison! I did not risk my life to save you just so we could go on on ignoring each other" Meredith says laughing

I don't think I understand what she is saying

"I am going on a date with you!" Meredith explains witch make me smiled

And now we are smiling together just like in my best dreams

"You were super nervous to ask me out, weren't you?" Meredith says laughing "what? There's nothing to laugh about! I never asked anyone out!" I say chuckling in the last part

She smiles at me saying that witch make me smile

Her smile is so magical... I missed it
I could stare at it for days without stopping...

"I love you" I say looking at her in the eyes, those magical green eyes I could get lost in

Oh god I've never thought those things about anyone

"I love you too, but we already said that" Mer said laughing "I know I just wanted to say it..." I say smiling at her amazingness "ok... " she says looking at me like I was being wired and chuckling "ok, fine but why do you keep laughing and smiling and chuckling like that? The Mer I know is more... how's that? What did you and Cristina used to define yourself?" I say remembering that one time Cristina entered our room and said something about Meredith being all dark and something I can't remember...

"It's Dark and Twisty, and I am just very much happy that you're alive!" She said smiling but than I saw her smile fading "what's that Mer?"I ask " it's nothing... just in the 3 month I've been sitting on this chair,  next to you, holding your hands, kissing them... I just... it was hard, you know? Seeing you like that..." Mer says witch leave me completely broken for two reasons: 1) she suffered because of me... again!
2) they said I was in coma for 5 months, but Mer said 3... that means that for the firsts 2 months she wasn't here... witch could mean that she was in coma too

"Mer? Why did you say 3 months? Richard told me I was in coma for 5..." I ask her, I knew the answer but I wanted to hear it from her "for the first month I was in a coma..." Meredith says with a 'don't make such a big deal out of it' expression

She had been in coma because of me... god I hurt her so... so much

*after a few months*

I can't believe I am getting out of here! Finally...

Plus tonight I am getting Meredith out for a date! So excited about it... really looking forward to it

Meredith POV:

Tonight Addison is bringing me out for a date! And I am so...
exited about it!

I am dressing elegant  'cause Addie told me to... I don't really know where we are going, but I really think it'll be great!

I've never been so optimistic about something in my life!

"Wow... you look great!" Izzie says to me entering my room with Lexie and George "yeah she's right... you look super hot!" Lexie says
"Yeah those are supposed to be Addison's lines... but thank you!" I say thanking them while laughing

" ok how are we feeling about this? Are we excited, nervous, needing to drink tequila...?" Cristina asks coming in  fixing my dress, I take her hands off of me and say "actually. I've never been more optimistic about something in my life!"
"Well that's good!" Iz and Lexi say
"Who are you and what did you do to my person!?"  Cristina asks taking my face in her hands and doing the fake serious face "ah ah ah Cristina you are very funny, but I am super serious about this! And I am not gonna change my mind!" I say convinced "ah ah" she said sarcastically "we'll see" she says

*intercom ringing*

"Oh my god it's her! This night is gonna be a disaster I am not psychologically ready for this!" I say breathing hardly and staring at Cristina who is laughing and as she does that I realized that I am doing exactly what she thought I would have done

"Relax Mer it's gonna be fine" izzie says reassuring me as Alex hug her from behind and kiss her on the cheek

God, those two are the perfect love story! Uhhhh I hate them when they are so perfect together!

" ok I am just gonna go open the door... and than go out with her..." I say to my friends and my sister "yeah Mer you got this!" Alex says out loud  but as soon as I walk away I hear Cristina " no she doesn't!"

" very helpful!" I yell "you're welcome!" She answer yelling

But as soon as I open the door and I see her every fear just go away... she us beautiful...

" you look... outstanding..." I say catching my breath in the middle "you look amazing too Mer" she says chuckling a bit

Yeah this is gonna be great!

I think while me and Addie walk to the car together

A/n.

Don't worry I promised sex I'll give you sex...
In the next chapter
Anyways how you like it <333