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AMARIA POV

On January 5th, the world resumes after the holiday. And so does my job as a model.

My manager called me that day about being on the cover of GQ magazine on the 10th. I have two days to prepare.

This is huge for me. I've never been on a cover for them before but they've interviewed at a lot of red carpet events.

After it was outed that I helped choreograph for Normani and Ariana Grande, I was interviewed by them at the BBMA's last year. I didn't know that I was pregnant yet. I just felt so sick. I assumed it was from the various smells of strong cologne as men walked by.

They use way more than they need to. It's overwhelming.

The DAZED issue dropped today. I had to log out of all of my social media accounts, I'm so scared to look.

Ivelisse texted me and said that it's nothing that we didn't expect. Some people are shocked about my pregnancy. Some are shocked but not surprised as they suspected it. Other are trying to piece things together, the rest are asking who the baby's father is.

She said that, as expected, my fans are telling people to mind their business and respect my privacy. They're already trending 'congratulations Amaria'  and 'mommy Mari' on Twitter.

Thats what prompts me to look.

Celebrities are congratulating me. The same media outlets that have bashed me in the past are now congratulating me on my child.

Somewhere in the articles about my pregnancy reveal, they're all saying 'is she going to be a single mother?', 'her career might plummet from this'. Or my personal favorite:

'It might be an NDA baby and that's why she can't say anything'.

TMZ is a joke.

I scroll through my feed to see that Normani and Kehlani have wished me congratulations. I like their tweets and the rest from my favorites before I continue scrolling.

Half of my feed is stan Twitter thanks to my love for Taemin. So it's only plausible that at some point his friend would start to feed in as well.

What shocks me isn't seeing Jimin on my feed. It's the mention from Taemin congratulating me on my child.

All of my fans know that Taemin is a big artistic inspiration of mine. Anyone who's watched any interview of mine knows that. I have all of his albums. His photo card was in the back of my phone for forever.

Until Kailo put my phone in his mouth and slobbered in the case and almost ruined it.

Taemin tweeted it four minutes ago.

My heart races. He just.... I just got.....

I grab a throw pillow from next me on the couch and scream into it. Kailo is taking a nap.

Samara and Ive Group FaceTime me and I have to gain my composure before answering. They're screaming too.

"DID YOU SEE IT ALREADY?!"