She stood infront of the mirror harshly throwing away dupatta followed by necklace breaking pearls in to millions of pieces, brutally taking off maang tikka, colourful bangles not giving damn about hurting herself already soo broken and wounded nothing could affect shehnaaz, not anymore "naaz u have to control yourself bache ... aram se nikaalo bache" she didn't hear a single word kept removing her jewellery almost scratching her skin, which turns completely bruised, scaring hell out of amma jaan.
"Kaise utaar rahe ho chudiyaan, chub jayenge shehnaaz" holding hand she harshly yanks away "chub jaane dein .. marr jaane dein ... woh yahan kyun agaye ... saman yahan kyun aye, usne mujhse mere sidharth ko cheen liya cheen liya usne mere sidharth ko" yelled, throwing photo frames "aram sai hosh karo shehnaaz" amma jaan, requested.
"Sidharth mera haina"
"Sidharth mera haina usne kaise cheen liya"
"Main ... maar daina chahte hoon saman ko ... zinda nahi chodunge usko"
"Kya bol rahe ho shehnaaz, hosh karo behan hai tumhare" amma jaan told holding shoulders and requesting her to think before talking rubbish, must carefully utter hateful words, what if she regrets in future.
"Saman meri behan nahi hai ... woh dushman hai meri ... I hate her samajh mein aya usko hona na hona mere liye matter nahi karta" loudly, argued.
"Kyun aye woh yahan, kaash saman us plane crash mein apne maa baap ke saath marr jate ... marr jate woh ... ya allah kyun saman zinda hai" reached another table for breaking show pieces became so exhausted fell down that amma jaan quickly scooped her in motherly embrace, patting her back, she moves back and fourth pleading her to calm down.
"Kisi ki galati nahi hai ... aapke galati hai ... kaash woh us plane mein hote .. marr jaate aur mera sidharth kabhi na cheente ... amma jaan ... aapko pata allah miyaan ki galati hai" fisting palms and harshly hitting on ground.
"Aap sunn rahe hain, I hate her gussa hoon aap se kyun woh yahan aye kaash woh marr jaate ... amma jaan uske badle aaj mera nikkah ho raha hota .. aap dekhna mere sidharth ko cheen kar saman kabhi khush nahi rahegi ..... main duaa karte hoon saman marr jaye" she broke down like miserable child none of her pleadings or prayers were heard, she lost her childhood love, her smile happiness, dreams and beautiful future all due to saman, she hates her deep down wish to stab knife in her heart snatching someone's love won't provide her peace or satisfaction, she will rot in hell.
"Woh uske bahaun mein hoga, amma jaan 😭💔" she cried for hours cursing saman for everything didn't realise when sleep took over amma jaan doesn't sleep kept praying almighty to reduce her agony, stayed awake.
Next morning, she woke up to witness amma jaan sitting in same position it's upsetting to keep poor lady awake "subah hogaye bache, jao muh dohlo phir namaz padne haina" she didn't reply instead proceeded like a dead soul who doesn't have life or purpose to live.
After changing dress and washing face march out to find amma jaan praying feeling ashamed of her doings apologised "I am sorry, na jaane kya ..hogaya tha apne hosh kho baithe thi, I didn't mean any of those words" she doesn't wanna hurt amma jaan or anybody it's her destiny which has to be blamed.
"Ek baat yaad rakhna, kal joh bhi huwa phir kabhi nahi hona chahiye saman tumhare behan hai aur sidharth uska shohar ... kisi ne sun liya toh qayamat ajayegi ... tum jawaan ladke ho, nahi chahte kisi bhi wajah se tumhare izzat par aanch aye isliye next time soch samajh kar baat karna" she explained.
"Main gussa nahin karna chahte lekin tumhe lekar pareshaan hoon chanda ladkiyaun ki izzat bohut nazuk hote hai, I don't want you to ruin yourself ab jakar namaz padho aur hamesha ke liye apna pyaar dil mein dafan karlo ab sidharth ko us nazar se dekhna gunnah hai" she agreed.
After praying, sleeps on amma jaan lap who fondly strokes her beautiful hair flying here and there ...
Bachpan mai jinhe apna mana tha,
Ladakhpan mai unhe apna pyaar paya tha,
Bass galti ek ho gayi,
Ki kehne mai bohat derr ho gayi.
Mere alfaaz ankahe reh gaye...
Vo toh mere seene mai hi dafan reh gaye.
Hum toh sirf unke the,
Chahe adhure ya pu re jaise bhi the,
Par vo na rahe humare,
Vo toh bane gye kisi aur kai humdum the.
Mere alfaaz ankahe reh gaye...
Vo toh kisi aur ke mehboob ban gaye.
"chanda ready hojao breakfast ka waqt hone wala hai" she nodded, wore too much of makeup and loud dress to show everything is perfect amma applied ointment on neck as well as bruised wrist "khud ko takleef daina gunnah hai apne kismat samajh kar qabool karlo" she lowered gaze "duaa karein, bohut jald maut ajaye apne aap meri mohabbat khatum hojayegi" shuts door can't hear anymore lecture only she knows how terrible it will feel to watch them.
"Oye madam kahan gayab hai, kabse pareshaan hoon tujhe lekar attention laine ki adat kabhi khatum nahi hoge na" sidharth laughed, holding hand a shiver ran down her spine "chodiye, mujhe apne behan se milna hai" that's impossible for him.
"bilkul nahi, baat kar tere haathun ko kya huwa babe ?" stroking wrist.
"aap se matlab, chudiyaan chub gaye" replied pushing hand out of his hold.
"dawaaye lagaye ruk main lagata hoon" he said "zaroorat nahi, main dekh lunge aap apne biwi par concentrate kariye" she rudely, commented.
"Tujhe huwa kya hai ... rudely kyun baat kar rahe hai ... main dekh raha hoon you have been pushing me away, baat kar na darling" she snorted.
"You have no right to call me babe or darling" he is shocked "have, you lost it itne badtameezi kyun kar rahe hai, hamesha babe bola ab kya badal gaya hai shehnaaz bol na ?" sounds tensed, couldn't even sleep thankfully saman has given him time to accept their marriage, been acting indifferent.
"Sab badal gaya hai" pushing him aside, went to meet saman.
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Done ❤️🤗 pehle bhi kaha tha story different hai won't be completely same insaan sabr karlaita hai, jinko meri wajah se bura laga uske liye sorry I never intended to hurt anyone lekin sirf aap dukhe nahi ho har sidnaazian aur sidheart hai, we will never be healed 🙏🏻 (Peace)
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