"Why do you always care about shehnaaz ?" saman almost yelled in frustration due to which sidharth aggressively clutched her shoulders "meri bestfriend hai chah kar bhi uske khayal apne deemag se nahi nikaal sakta" he yelled back.
"Main aapke biwi hoon" her voice chocked.
"Yet I hold no place in your heart, solely belongs to shehnaaz" she cried resting head over his chest "why don't you accept that you love her ?" his jaw dropped couldn't believe, stood like a dummy expressionless, heart stopped beating, so freaking astonish took sometime for him to realise and react.
"What the fuck, are you saying ... I don't ... love her ... have u lost your senses I treat her like a babe chota sa bacha hota haina waise chahta hoon mein usko isliye zayada khayal bhi rehta warna mujhe kyun uske itne parwa hote" he has no right to love shehnaaz, their age differences are too much, can't love some one else being a married man, it's a sin worse a dreadful crime.
"No, sidharth your madly in love with her chahe jitna bhi deny karlo insaan ko sach aakhir mein qabool karna hota hai, tumne kabhi mujhe chaha nahin, you have always considered me as good friend jisko tum pasandh karte ho kyunke hamare like aur dislikes kaafi similar hain lekin pasandh aur mohabbat mai na zameen asmaan ka fadak hota hai jisko tum samajh nahi paaye" she informed.
"I love you sidharth, thank you mere proposal ko accept karke shaadi karne ke liye pure zindagi na saahi atleast ek mahine ke liye sahi, biwi bann ke rehne ka mauka toh mila lekin aap mere nahi shehnaaz ke hain, ur heart yearns to view her breath taking smile, I have seen how you anxiously keep staring at her like as if she would disappear within blink of an eye, the way you state rights, lose temper on witnessing junaid roaming behind her ... missing her presence the way she enjoys time with junaid drives you insane, aap shehnaaz ke liye kaafi possessive ho you can't tolerate anybody gaining her attention" she smiled.
"No I don't ... please saman khud ko takleef mat doh" he pleaded by cupping delicate face between his rough palms "tumhe mahaan bane ki zaroorat nahi waise bhi aisa kuch nahi hai jaisa tum samajh rahe ho" he lied.
"Aap jhoot bol kar khud ko aur shehnaaz ko azziyat (pain) kyun dairahe hain, kuch time ke liye mujhe khush kar bhi dain toh zindagi bhar ke liye usko kho dainge shayed phir junaid ki zindagi bhi kharab hojaye" she explained, does not want him to compromise when there is no love better to part ways .. yes it's going to be very painful and gut wrenching may be time will heal broken pieces of her fragile heart, she doesn't wish to keep him bounded, better for them to part ways, set him free and encourage him to win over his true love rather than fulfilling namesake nikkah.
"Nahi ... I can't be so cruel ... so selfish ... main use nahi chahta.. please tum chup karke neeche chalo, I promise to keep you happy for life" due to lot of remorse hurriedly pulled her along when she stopped "rukiye, shehnaaz se aap pyaar nahi karte aur mere saath zindagi bitaana chahte haina" nodded after twitching eyebrows unable to understand her next move, why doesn't she stop testing his patience, dealing with her is becoming too challenging, horrified to get himself caught.
"We never shared physical relationship before like husband and wife, so why don't you kiss me and provide assurance ?" she demanded, knows this is too challenging next to impossible, since their wedding night, sidharth kept a lot of distance even mentioned to gradually explore their relationship with time they will surely proceed to intimate level basically his brain was occupied by shehnaaz, her thoughts were haunting him, her ignorance was killing him.
He felt ground slip beneath his feet, couldn't stand her unexpected demand erupted like a jolt in his body, she cupped his face and leaned closer setting him on fire, tried shutting eyes and fulfilling her wish, that's when beautiful face of his shehnaaz appeared, due to which abruptly, pushed himself back every nerve on his body trembled.
He couldn't kiss saman it felt extremely wrong 💔
Pathetic ...
Disgusting ...
Gut wrenching ...
How could his betrayal heart imagine shehnaaz over saman ?
He is extremely disgusted, tears of resentment trickle down while studying her painful expressions, she is trying hard to replace with a heart warming smile.
"Dekha aap shehnaaz ko chahte hain" voice choked.
"I am sooo sorry" knelt down, crying hard over his stupidity of not recognising his feelings towards his bestfriend and ruining saman who literally deserved a lot of happiness, she has truly been a supportive wife yet couldn't develop the emotions of love for saman in his heart.
He miserably failed as husband and bestfriend 💔
"Main duniya ka sabse ghatiya insaan hoon jisko apne feelings ka ehsaas bhi na huwa jisne apne biwi ko khushiyan tak nahi di, jisne apne dost kho de, ek ladke ki zindagi barbaad karde, I should have thought before marriage, uske baad pyaar karna toh dur shehnaaz ke baare mein sochna bhi gunnah hai, u are absolutely right na chahte huwe bhi mujhe use pyaar hai" he confessed.
"I don't deserve to be loved ... maine tumhare zindagi kharab karde saman I should have thought hundred times before accepting your proposal, kyunke meri taraf se liking aur attraction thi, mujhe laga waqt ke saath pyaar hojana hai lekin ehsaas na huwa ke main toh already shehnaaz ko chahta hoon" his words are heart aching, she had accepted cruel fate yet it hurts too much, as she realises how deeply and madly her soul yearn for him.
He doesn't belong to her keeping him bounded for life would be foolishness therefore decides to set him free, for his happiness, for shehnaaz, her lovely sister deserves the best, she committed a sin by falling for him.
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