"Bhai, mujhe aap se shehnaaz ke baare mein baat karne hai" rehaan nervously told sitting on couch right beside him.
"Bol na rehaan itna kya soch raha hai" sidharth motivated.
"Bachpan se lekar aaj tak mummy has been comparing saman and shehnaaz, I have seen her encouraging shehnaaz to become like her which badly shattered her confidence, unknowingly developed hatred in her heart for saman which is quite obvious parents should equally love and adore their kids, partiality leads to destruction, jealously and depression" rehaan explained.
"What are you talking about ?" displaying confusion in his tone and expression sighing thought of becoming more clear and loud.
"Humne kabhi mummy ko serious lekar roka nahin, jab bhi shehnaaz ko kehte thi ke saman ki tarhan bano uske tarhan padho likho, utho baitho, uske tarhan baat karna seekho, uske tarhan khanna banao, uske tarhan ambitious bano .. I know mummy ki intension demotivate karna nahi tha unfortunately hogaye" a sharp pain erupted on his chest feeling disappointed being her best friend, has been unaware of her inner turmoils, her hidden agony and emptiness.
"We never took mummy seriously, in fact shehnaaz ko dekh kar lagta tha ke us ko bhi fadak nahi padta lekin usko padta tha, she had been broken, mummy is responsible for making her insecure and incompetent, her confidence has also miserably shattered" his heart clenched to death.
"Ek hota haina apne par bharosa kuch karne ka mummy ne sab tod diya, usko apne aap se nafrat hai and on top of everything you ruined her completely, us ladke ko sirf aap aur amma jaan ke saath hone ka pride tha, she loved you too much more than anybody in this world"
"We have seen how possessive she had been for you since childhood wanted her bestfriend to achieve all the success from exams to playing games, kabhi mujhe support nahi kiya which irked me alot but with time I accepted ke her world, happiness and peace pretty much revolves around you. I stopped my self from interfering in her matters. I gave you two privacy, she never wished anybody becoming third wheel"
"I understood mere behan ko mujhse matlab nahin hai uske duniya aap par shuru aap par khatum hote hai phir bhai how could u marry saman .. aapko judge nahi kar raha bass dil se punch raha hoon, zoya told me.. how excited she was during her birthday, planned to propose and confess her love, uske pehle saman ne aapko propose karliya jiske wajah se uska dil toot gaya, her heart and feelings broke usne aap dono ke khushi ke liye apna dil tod diya"
"Why didn't you think about her ?" rehaan asked, his voice cracked.
"Aap khud socho jis ladke ne aapko aaj tak kisi se share nahi kiya woh kaise aapke shaadi kisi aur se hota dekh khush hote ?" sidharth is crying his poor heart is aching and weeping, drowning under extreme remorse and guilt.
"I am sorry bhai !" rehaan apologised, feeling disheartened for questioning him which he never did before.
"I have no right to question, I am sorry for disrespecting !" he utters, shook head asking him not to apologise being a loving brother it's his right to ask worry about his sister's mental state.
"I fucked up rehaan, maine kabhi shehnaaz ko us nazar se dekha ya pyaar nahin kiya tha. I had always adored her like babe jisko attention or khayal karne ki zaroorat hai. I felt the need to fulfil her wishes didn't know actual feelings my heart was developing during the process of shielding her ... u know she has been a very important part of my life" his voice chocked.
"I loved her as my best friend, when I met saman there was little attraction because we had certain likes and dislikes which were too common. I never loved saman, I accepted proposal thinking maybe in future, this attraction might develop into pure love, I told her main sirf pasandh karta hoon"
"It was never love from my side, I didn't want to reject her proposal socha shaadi ke baad things will change, we didn't work, I was only thinking my bestfriend is ignoring me, desperately wanted to know, what could be the reason, I couldn't accept saman as my wife because shehnaaz had been a constant keeper of my heart, mind and soul" he kept his points clearly.
"Yaar kabhi kabar insaan ko samajh nahin lagte .. We tend to believe all our decisions are right, us point par sahi lag rahe hote hain lekin waqt ke saath samajh ata hai ke humne kitne bade bhool karde hai" regretfully, told.
"I hate myself for breaking her heart 💔" he cried "I wish I could heal some portion of her broken soul" helplessly, rubbed his agonised face.
"Bhai please khud ko blame mat karne baith jana ... maine aapko sirf uske points ke clarity daine ke liye bataya hai, she's drowning into extreme guilt your extreme power and pure love has tendency to heal her .... she blames herself for ruining saman's marriage ... she is cursing herself" he shared.
"Why is she holding herself responsible ?" sidharth furrowed eyebrows, in confusion unable to understand his statements.
"Obviously, she will saman ne rishta todne ke ek wajah usko banaye hai, u were unable to continue as soon as you realised your love for her upar se I think she cursed saman during your nikkah .. thinks how come saman has heart to let go off you for her ?"
"Wtf are you talking about, did she lost her brain ?" he almost freaked out, holding herself responsible for everything is pathetic.
"I don't blame her she is mentally exhausted upar se usne baduaa de thi is wajah se bohut zayada guilty hai then people calling her snake, for being a home wrecker, everything is taking a toll on her brain" he gasped.
"I can't believe it, what did she got herself into ?" all her actions have now become understandable, his heart broke and eyes shed painful tears.
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