The Ruins of Winter

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

"Delete it!" Sabi ko.

Paglabas ko ng kwarto ay nasa sala siya at nanonood sa netflix. Mukhang kanina pa siya gising dahil mukhang nakaligo na. He is wearing a white shirt and a black maong shorts. Despite being at home, his clothes still looks good and it's all branded.

"Luis!" Sabi ko, "Please, let's not add insult to injury!"

Pero hindi niya ako nililingon at patuloy siya sa panonood ng kung ano sa telebisyon. Gago naman 'to!

Kinuha ko ang remote at agad na pinatay ang tv para mapunta ang atensyon niya sa akin.

"Hindi mo ba naiintindihan!" Sigaw ko, "This is making my situation worse than it already is! Nakita mo naman kung gaano kagalit at kung paano kami nag-away kagabi!"

"Are you seriously not breaking up with that bastard?" He asked. Tumayo siya at tinaasan ako ng kilay.

Natahimik ako. Whatever I want to do, wala na siyang pake doon. Whatever I decide, hindi na siya kasama. Hindi niya na kailangang malaman. Hindi siya kasama sa relasyon namin. He is only here because I want to consider his help, dahil desperada ako. Because I see him as an easier path for me to get out of our house.

"He literally... tried... to hurt you." Sabi niya.

"He did not hurt me." Sagot ko.

"But he was planning to do so!" Sagot niya, "If I never came, tingin mo wala ka pang sampal?"

"Can you please just delete that?" I asked him, "Parang awa mo na. My life is not an entertainment for you to play around like this. You will never understand what I feel and what I think of. You will never understand me because we are different..."

"I am not making your life an entertainment, excuse me?" He scoffed, "Do you think I'm having fun watching you do stupid shit and making dumb decisions?"

"Just... delete it." Sabi ko.

Kinuha niya ang cellphone niya at dinelete ang post before looking at me with a sarcastic face and tone of voice, "Happy?"

"Eat your breakfast." Sabi niya, "I'll go home. Kung gusto mong dito ka muna, I have spare keys." Ipinatong niya ang mga susi sa sala table, "If you want to go then just lock the condo properly."

"Uuwi na ako..." Sagot ko, "Babalik na lang ako sa susunod na linggo para maglipat ng gamit..."

"You don't even want to eat?" He asked. Umiling ako.

"Hindi ako gutom." Sagot ko.

"You did not even have your dinner last night..." Napatingin ako sa kanya. Umiwas siya ng tingin at nagkibit balikat, "Fine. Umuwi ka na kung gusto mo..."

I cannot read him.

Despite having a very transparent attitude, Juan Luis Lee is a mystery to me. He is very out going but private. He is very playful but serious. He is a paradox personified. I will never understand him too.

Kinabukasan ay nagdesisyon kaming mag-usap ni Ty. We saw each other in a small cafè near our place. Kapag kasi malapit sa condo niya, maraming posibleng makakita.