The Ruins of Winter

Special Chapter 1

Daenerys Isabella Hernandez

"Mga signs na hindi ka na mahal ng jowa mo. Una, palagi siyang nasa phone," Ibinaba ni Juan Luis ang cellphone niya at tumingin sa akin, a smile played on my lips, "Pangalawa, ititigil niya ang pagpophone niya, kasi guilty siya." sinamaan ako ng tingin ni JL, I raised a brow at him, "Pangatlo, tititigan ka niya ng masama kasi nga guilty siya,"

"Enough TikTok for today," he rolled his eyes at me, "You've been discovering too many bullshit because of that app."

"At panghuli, ayan na, pang-apat, isisisi niya sayo kasi... kakatiktok mo daw yan." Juan Luis rolled his eyes at me again before shaking his head. He's so effortlessly funny when cannot stand me and my brattiness, and then he will realize that he doesn't have a choice because he's stuck with me for the rest of our lives.

"I'm messaging Tain. Malapit na ang birthday ni—"

"No one asked." I smirked at him, "Magcellphone ka lang, JL."

He sighed, "I'm sorry,"

He's so fucking irritating. Naiinis ako sa mukha niya. I hate his smell. I hate the way he does his hair. I hate his voice. He's really just extra annoying these past few days. Kahit na ayoko namang mainis sa kanya, naiinis pa rin ako. I just can't stand him. Kahit na alam ko naman minsan na wala siyang ginagawang mali o ako ang gumagawa ng problema.

Ibinaba ko ang phone ko at humikab, "May biscoff pa ba tayo?"

"I'm sure we still have one? I bought two last week. I'll check," he kissed the top of my head.

"Naubos ko na 'yon..." I bit my lower lip.

"What?" nagkatinginan kami.

"Anong what?" I raised a brow at him, "Ubos na 'yon. That's why I told you to buy more."

"In a week, Erys? Ano 'yon? Inuulam mo sa kanin?" he asked, before chuckling. He doesn't take me seriously and I hate it! Tumayo ako mula sa sofa at galit na hinarap siya, "I'm... kidding,"

"No, you're not. You're laughing at me. You're laughing at this. As if I enjoy this." I told him. Hindi siya makasingit sa akin, "Do you think I'm having fun? Do you think that this is easy for me? Do you think that—" I frowned, tearing up, "I just fucking hate you."

He sighed, "Baby..."

Dire-diretso ang lakad ko papanik sa master's bedroom. I locked the door before letting myself burst into tears. I hate this feeling of not having control over my emotions.

Maya-maya pa, kumakatok na si Juan Luis sa pinto. Dahan-dahan niya iyong binuksan at sumilip sa akin, "I'll sleep in the guest room tonight if you don't want me here. I'm sorry, baby. Please don't stress yourself out because of me..."

I held my stomach.

Pregnancy has never been easy for me, or for any woman in the world. But, my fucking god, this is the worst. I never had these weird cravings and petty mood swings when I got pregnant with Ice. Kaya hindi ko rin alam kung paano magrereact. Hindi ko alam kung paano ipapaliwanag at kung paano ko ihahandle ang sarili ko, because this is new to me too.

Magfofour months na ang pagbubuntis ko. The cravings are just weird at first, but now it's getting more horrible— to the point that my mood swings affect our relationship. Juan Luis opened the cabinet to prepare the beddings that he will bring to the guest room. Pinanood ko ang likod niya at gusto kong maiyak agad.