Eyes Don't Lie

Chapter 33

I  can still remember the days I am with Vernon's car. The parking lot of my school was always our meeting place. He will visit me, his back leaning on his car, waiting for me, while carrying the lunch box he made for me. Wearing his usual white long sleeves polo or white shirt. And we also love doing road trips. When we drive thru and help him eat while he drives to our destination.

It's my one of the best moments with him. I will never forget the days when being with him is my contentment. That I'm willing to trade my dreams and passion just so I can be with him.

How I wish it's still the same now...

My solace and my home.

I quickly glanced at the man silently maneuvering his car out of the parking lot. I did my best declining on his offer, but here I am inside his car as I let him drive me to Katya's house.

Marupok. One word to describe me today.

Akala ko ba lalayuan ko na? Bakit ngayong nalaman kong hindi sila ni Vienna ay ayos na?

I heaved my sigh and immediately avoided my gaze when I realized this is because of him being kind to me.

How could I avoid someone who does nothing, but good to me? How could I avoid him when instead of getting mad at me, he cares for me? In short, why should avoid someone I love?

My lips protruded as I stressed myself overthinking of good deeds he did to me.

What if he's just being nice? The Vernon I know that is always kind to me after accusing him of many things? Maybe he's like this to his exes just like me.

I'm just assuming things, making meaning to his actions because I still love him.

My heart hurts thinking that this time, it will be one sided. He will never love me back. I will never be the girl he dreamt that will be with him when he build his family.

"Can I turn the music on?" I asked him to ease the bitter feeling building up on me.

He glanced at me before nodding and stared back at the road.

Iyon naman ang ginawa ko at binuksan ang radio sa sasakyan nito. Sumandal ako sa bintana nito pagkatapos at pinanood ang labas.

I was playing my fingers when the song ended and a familiar song started. Nahinto ako sa paghu-hum sa pamilyar na kantang nadidinig ko ngayon.

Damn it. Why they should play this song?

My cheeks heated up. Nilingon ko si Vernon at nahuli ko rin ang pagsulyap nito sa akin bago ibalik ang tingin sa daan.

"I'll miss you... Kiss you... Give you my coat when you are cold."

He hummed that when I was feeling down. He comforts me with that song. I remember downloading that song and play it just so I can sleep when I broke up with him.

"I changed my mind. I think, I will just turn the radio off..." Nahihiya kong saad at mabilis pinatay ang radio ng sasakyan nito.

Hindi naman ako nito kinibo, na laking pagpapasalamat ko. I don't know how can I explain if he ask me questions about it.

I still can't move on, Vernon. I still love you.

Namutawi muli ang katahimikan sa biyahe nang biglang may tumawag dito. Napasulyap naman ako roon at nakitang naka-connect pala ang phone niya sa sasakyan.

I saw Sean's name registered on the screen. Mabilis niyang sinagot iyon na kunot ang noo.

"Why are you calling?" Masungit na pambungad nito sa pinsan.