Eyes Don't Lie

Chapter 6

Breaking someone's heart is so hard. Iyon ang nasa isip ko kanina pa pagpasok ko sa school. Ito ang unang beses na pumayag akong magpaligaw, and it will also be my first time to reject someone.

Miguel is a good guy naman, but I promised Naville not entertaining boys, as for him, he won't entertain girls. As much as I wanted to avoid breaking Miguel's heart, I just can't stop it. Kaya hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit may mga taong nakakayang manakit at mang-iwan.

Is it because they're not happy with their partners? Or because they found someone who will fill the emptiness that their partners can't do? Or maybe because they are hurt, and they wanted others to suffer, so they will hurt them like what they felt?

But is it all worth it? If you're not happy with your partner, then you shouldn't get one at all. Because for me, it's not just about happiness. If all they wanted is happiness, then they should've just hired clowns to entertain them, maybe they can feel the happiness they wanted. Dahil sa palagay ko, kung ang laging rason mo sa pagputol ng relasyon ay dahil hindi ka na masaya, walang magtatagal sa'yo.

When you love someone, it's not about being happy. Sometimes you won't avoid getting hurt and feel sad, but if you will always walk away and do nothing, that will be your problem forever. For me, a love that is brave, is worth living for.

I really don't understand why do people can endure breaking someone's heart. It's not fun at all. Thinking that you hurt someone, that did nothing, but good to you.

“Tell me more, Astrid. Ano pang ginawa niyo except sa holding hands?" Pangungulit ni Katya sa akin.

Kanina pa ako nito tinatanong kahit nasa harapan na ang teacher namin. At ngayong umalis na ito at break time na namin ay mas lalo lang akong kinukulit. Buti nga ay hindi kami napapansin kanina habang palihim kong binibigay ang notebook niyang may sagot sa mga tanong niya sa akin.

Na-late kasi akong pumasok kaya hindi na nila ako na-interview pa sa date naman ni Naville.

It's actually good. Iyon nga lang ay hindi ko makalimutan ang pagyakap nito sa akin. Isa rin sa dahilan kung bakit ako late ng gumising.

I still remember my reaction, how my heart beats faster than usual. I'm still convincing myself that there's other reason why my heart beats abnormally. I even asked Mom about my last annual check-up and she said, I'm good.

Maybe... it's really Naville's fault? He knows how to easily flutter someone's heart, maybe my reaction is just normal. Siguro hindi lang ako ang nagkakaganon sa yakap niya.

Shit.

Am I having a crush on him na?

I remember back then, when I was a kid. I met a famous actor and he's so gwapo. I actually idolized him and watched some of his movies and drama. When he looked at me that time and smile, suddenly, I felt like my world stop spinning as my heart started to beat abnormally that I can hear it.

I even told my Mom about it and she just laughed on me, saying that I'm having a crush on that guy. Mom said it's just a normal reaction when you have a crush on someone. The abnormality beating of your heart, butterflies on your stomach, blushing, and feeling shy when he or she is around.

“We just watched movie and ate, Katya. That's all."

“Kain at nood lang?" Si Wena na may ngisi na sa mga labi.

I suddenly feel conscious the way she look at me. It feels like she knows something, when actually it's not. Or maybe Naville told them about it?

I shook my head in disbelief. What am I thinking? Naville isn't tsismoso.