Pagsibol (Munimuni Series #4)

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

He fills me with solace and comfort. When I began to doubt my own strength, when I began to doubt whether I could truly fulfill my vengeance on my parents, he appeared. A feather appeared in my life to help me.

Kyler is not some friend; he's one of a kind. He is always there for me when I am lonely. He was constantly reminding me to eat and be healthy. He never leave me.

At first, I was thinking... I thought I was simply yearning for his presence, but I was mistaken. Because… Something is forming inside my heart right now.

I know, this can't happen. I promised myself that I wouldn't mind if Kyler confessed something to me.

I've told myself numerous times that I don't care about him and that I'm merely using him as a tool. But I was mistaken. Because I had been concerned about him all along. I just can't admit it to myself because I'm afraid of admitting that... I was doomed for him.

The fact is... I wasn't only yearning for his presence. When Kyler went away for a week, I had a lot of epiphanies.

I adored him and valued him the most. And I... I… love him…

"What was that?" I asked him.

"Hmm?"

I sighed. "That… why did you do that?"

"Isn't it obvious?" tanong niya.

Marahas akong bumuntonghininga at nanatiling naka iwas ng tingin sa kanya.

"I like you ever since, but I'm not able to show it to you because I don't want to be your distraction." he said.

"But you already are,"

He sighed. "Now, I'm confessing in front of you. Yes, I fell in love… even though I feel it's not right."

I swallowed hard. He then held my hand.

"I'm not asking for you to answer me. I just want to… confess before it's too late." dugsong niya.

Nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. "Kailan pa?"

"I don't know," he shrugged.

"Don't you think it's too rash? Baka hindi mo talaga ako gusto? Baka iyang nararamdaman mo sa'kin… panandalian lang din. Baka nasanay ka lang sa presensya ko, kaya gano'n?" paninigurado ko sa kanya.

Kung ako, nalito noon sa nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Siya… baka nalilito din siya sa kung anong totoong nararamdaman niya sa'kin.

How funny is it that we promised that we will only help each other— we will only use each other. But look at what is happening right now. This situation, I already see this coming.

"Tinanong ko na 'to sa sarili ko noon, and after how many weeks of doubts. Noong nawala ka sa piling ko, doon na pumasok sa isip ko na… mahal nga kita. Dahil kaya kong gawin ang lahat para ma protektahan ka." he whispered.

I sighed heavily. Napatingin na lang ako sa dalampasigan, pilit na iniiwasan ang mga mata niyang nakatingin sa'kin.

"Why do you keep looking away, huh? May itatanong pa ako sa'yo." he said.

"Hmm?"

"After that kiss… what did you feel?"

Matagal ako baka nakasagot. "As usual. I feel what I usually feel when I'm with you."

"What did you feel?"

"A strange feeling. A feeling of nervousness and… my heart keeps beating so fast." amin ko.