𝚜𝚎𝚘𝚔𝚜𝚘𝚘 𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜

12 - i'm sorry

hello ;) this one-shot is based on an idea given to me by CaratTopia  I hope you'll like it
take care of yourself, drink your water, start to take vitamins as winter is near :)
I hope you'll enjoy this one too and feedback is always appreciated ;)

"Good evening."

Jisoo just got home but already knew he was in trouble. He has been working non stop for the last three weeks and his boyfriend was not happy about it. Seokmin knew how much working stressed him out but couldn't do anything to make him change his mind.

"Good evening Minnie. How was your day ?"

It was past midnight and Jisoo had been gone since six in the morning. He just knew that Seokmin was mad about him being out so late and not being able to take care of himself.

"It was nice. My classes finished early. What about you ?"

"I was at the library this morning, and in class for the rest of the day."

"Your classes ended at four today. Where were you ?"

"I went back to the library with a classmate to work on a project."

Jisoo was so tired and could feel the fight coming. He had no energy left to fight his way in an argument against his dear boyfriend's worry.

"You were with a classmate and you couldn't send me a single text to let me know that you were okay."

"I'm sorry, my phone died at lunch and this project is really important for the finals."

"Ah really ? More important than me ? Your boyfriend ?"

"I'm not having that talk again. I'm going to bed, I'm tired."

"I'm tired too, you know."

"You don't have to wait for me every night. I already told you that."

Jisoo who was tidying his stuff met the disapproving look of his boyfriend.

"Maybe I want to wait for you to make sure you are fine !"

"Don't yell at me ! I'm fine by the way !"

"I am not yelling ! And you are far from fine ! You think I don't see the dark circles under your eyes or the fact that you lost weight because you don't eat at all ! I'm scared for you ! I'm scared of losing you !"

"It's just the stress of the finals. I'm going to be just fine soon."

"I don't think you understand, you need to do something now ! This is already unhealthy ! You barely sleep anymore !"

"I don't need someone to tell me what to do ! I'm a grown up man !"

"Are you sure about that ? Do you want to be alone a bit to prove me wrong ?!"

"Yes ! And don't bother coming back !"

"Is this how you want to end this ?!"

No.

"Yes. Leave me alone. Go."

Don't leave me alone, stay.

"No problem. I'll pick up my stuff tomorrow. Goodbye Jisoo."

Jisoo could just watch the man he loves leave their shared apartment. When the door closed, he fell to the ground and started crying. He knew Seokmin was right, he was not taking care of himself, but he was too proud to admit it to his lover, no, ex-lover. It has been weeks since he has slept more than five hours a day and everything was getting on his nerves. He knew he had no right to be that mad at his boyfriend simply because he cared and he felt so guilty. Seokmin had already helped him so many times before, he didn't know why he did not let him help once more. It's with tears of guilt running down his face that he fell asleep that night. Still on the floor, too weak to even walk to the bedroom and his beloved bed.

When he woke up the next morning, he was in bed surrounded by the warmth of the blankets. He opened his eyes and they fell right on Seokmin's worried face. He started crying right away.

"Don't cry. I'll leave if you want me to leave."

With those words Seokmin started to get up but Jisoo did not let him go too far as he grabbed the other's arm.

"No. Please. Don't leave me. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I'm sorry. Stay with me."

Seokmin seeing the distress of his hyung was quick to put him into his embrace. Jisoo buried his face into his chest as tears were falling down his face.

"I didn't mean it yesterday. I promise. You know it's so hard without you. But I'm so tired."

"You don't have to carry on that struggle alone. I'm here."

"It's all stressing me out so much. Those finals are horrible. I'm sorry I snapped, it was not against you."

"I think I understand. But we still have so much to talk about."

"Just don't leave me. Please I beg you, don't leave me."

Seokmin cupped Jisoo's face in his hands before gently kissing his cheeks.

"I'm not going anywhere. Do you know how scared I was to leave you all alone yesterday night ? And when I came here to find you asleep on the living room floor ? Do you even know how to take care of yourself ? The couch was beside you. You scared me so much, I thought you did something stupid."

"I'm so sorry. I love you."

"I love you too. Just let me take care of you, okay ?"

Jisoo just let his head rest on Seokmin's shoulder as he nodded.

"There is some left over in the fridge. Do you want to eat ?"

"No. But I should go to class."

"Stop right here. You are not leaving this apartment until you start feeling a tiny bit better. No class for you today. Understood ?"

"Yes, Minnie."

"Do you want to sleep more ?"

"Yes, please."

"Okay, lay down then."

"But I want you to stay with me."

"Then we both lay down."

The two pulled apart for a moment. They settled in bed, under the blankets, Jisoo's head on Seokmin's chest, their legs entangled, like it's supposed to be.

"We will eat when we wake up."

"Okay."

"Sleep hyung. I'll be there when you wake up."

Seokmin watched his hyung slowly fall asleep with a satisfied smile on his lips. He was finally getting some rest. They still had so much to talk about and some issues to solve. But one thing was sure, he will not let go of the man in his embrace.