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Tris POV

"Hello?" He says. I sit there still as a deer. I don't want him to see me this way. I wipe the tears off my eyes. I hear his shoes eco as they hit the ground "is anyone here?" He says.

I curl up closer to the wall. I want to be alone, I hate it when people come and try to make me feel better. I know he saw how angry I was when I left the hotel restaurant. I have no doubt that he came looking for me. I mean he is my leader. He has every right to know what I'm going through but...I also know that he's going to want to sweet talk me.

He nears the room I am in. I should just let him see me. He's going to ask me later anyway. I stretch my legs out and lean against the wall. He steps into the room and turns the light on.

"Tris" he plainly says.

"Can you cut the lights" I say looking up at him. Surprisingly he does so. He walks over to me and sits down. I stay quiet still stunned with what he just did.

"So why'd you leave?" I stare at the wall far beyond.

"I don't want to talk about it" I say. I don't even want to think about it.

"Okay, then what should we talk about?" I glance over at him. He keeps his gaze straight ahead. I look back at the wall.

"Do you know what led the factions to split apart?" He thinks for a minute. Or at least I think he does.

"Competition, it's always been competition...who's the best dancer, who has the best body, who's the best kisser...things like that" wow. Sounds like the comparison between my cousins and I. I really hate this life. Why care for something you're going to leave behind one day. Do it for what you love and hope.

"Do you like it here?"

"Here in dauntless?" I turn around to meet his eyes and nod "I mean it's the only place I can call home really"

"What about the factions, don't you hate having to live by rules and all...don't you miss being able to have freedom?" He turns around and nods.

"I do but...what can I do about it" he turns to look at me. I turn back around to stare at the wall.

"I think you can do something, you're just afraid"

"Well everyone's afraid of something" he says. And it's true. Sometimes I'm just afraid of myself. Of who I truly am. What am I leading myself to? I mean there's Tris the perfect, stiff girl and Tris the talented, dauntless. I guess it's not always fighting for what people say of you but fighting against your inner self. There's a constant war inside of us.

"What are you afraid of?" I ask. He looks at me and smirks.

"Are you taking advantage to know my personal things?" I laugh.

"No, are you?...trying to make me spit out what happened earlier"

"You got me on that one" he laughs. I like the sound of his laugh. He didn't only come to make me feel better. That wasn't even his intention. I like that about him.

"So, are you going to tell me?"

"Wow, I mean ask me a simpler question" I think for a minute.

"What's your favorite color?" I smile

"You've stepped over the line" he says in a serious tone. I laugh.

"Really tell me" he shifts his legs.

"Grey" I laugh.

"Seriously?" He looks at me and laughs. Of course he's joking...right?

"What you think I'm lying?" I stay there staring at him for a second. He looks back at me with a smile on his lips. I look back at the wall.

"Well you aren't candor" I smile and look back at him.

"I hate the factions, if I were to go back and change things I did I would" I look at him. He isn't lying.

"How come you don't tell Zeke about this?"

"Any failure out of any faction is known to be the black sheep...it's just a bad reputation for the faction, like I said before all they care about is who's best" he looks at the wall.

"But that's not the point of a dance team"

"Yeah, well I guess people don't see that" he fiddles around with the keys in his hands. I study his facial features. I don't know why I do, he might find it odd. He turns around and looks at me. Tobias is very handsome, he has a life to live. I on the other hand can't handle so much. I'm still that stiff.

"You're divergent" I say. He looks me in the eyes.

"I'm surprised you noticed" I look down at the bracelet on my wrist. It's so obvious. He's different from all the others. He helped me knowing I came from Erudite "but that makes me nothing like you, I don't think I would ever do what you did a couple days ago"

"That's what everyone says but I ruin everything I do..."

"Why are you so hard on yourself, don't you have enough with what your parents tell you?" I scan the charms on my bracelet.

"Well, what can I do about it" I look up at him. He realizes I said the exact same words he said.

"Did you ever hear those rumors about Evelyn"

"Your mom?"

"Mhm"

"Yeah, she left your dad or something and...he beat you?" I don't mean to be straight forward but that's what the rumors were.

"You got your news updates" he smiles.

"I get bored at home sometimes" he laughs.

"Well those rumors marked me for life, literally" I look at him. What? "Marcus was furious when he found out about Evelyn, I don't blame him for doing what he did but I don't justify anything at all"

"I really don't know what to say" I mean I seriously don't.

"Let me show you something..." I start to get up.

"We don't have to go anywhere" he smiles. Oh. I sit again. The next thing he does is insane. He brings his shirt over his head and turns his back towards me. His entire back is marked with black ink. Hidden beneath that I see scars. But that's not all I see. The factions.

"The factions" I smile. I touch my hand to his back. I feel his body move as he breathes "This is beautiful" I say. I bring my hand over every faction, sliding it down.

"I've never told anyone about this, I'm trusting you on this one" he pulls his shirt down and turns around to look at me.

"As long as you keep my secret, I'm fine" he laughs.

"Tell me when you're ready, I might be extremely hard on you at times but I am an instructor"

"Yeah you can be scary at times" I laugh. He stands up.

"I have to go now, you gonna be okay?"

"Yeah" I say. I'm sure about it.

"Okay, I'll see you around then"

"Okay" he walks out.

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