Hell Above (Sequel To Heaven Below)

Chapter 37~Why.

We can't control what other people do and what they feel. If they feel a certain way, sometimes you can talk them out of doing something bad...But in this case, we couldn't stop it.

I didn't think twice about jumping in front of Adam. Why would I? His life is more important than mine... Adam is refusing to talk to Zoe. She went home with Neil and Dad an hour ago. Adam went out with the band to get me some decent food instead of this shitty plastic shit.

I trace my fingers down my scars... How different would it be without me? Would Adam be happy? Would his career be different? Would he be this happy...?

At least I think he's happy... He always has a smile on his face around me but when he isn't next to me, he seems distant... We're newly weds... We shouldn't be feeling distant already. He is probably just so pre occupied with his new album coming out in a few months, he has stress on him that he doesn't need..

"Hey TJ" Hayley chimes in as she walks in with Monte and Adam behind her.

"Hey Hayley" I smile softly as I sit up.

"Are you okay? Why are you crying?" Adam asks as he puts the food down. I touch my face to feel tracks of my tears, I hadn't even realised I was crying...

"Yeah I'm fine" I smile at him, he leans down and softly kisses my lips.

"You better be" He says sternly. "We got some fried rice for you" He says.

"I'm not really hungry anymore" I say looking down at my fingers. It goes quiet in the room.

"You always have fried rice, even if you're full." Monte says softly.

"Tommy, please just eat" Adam says as he hands me the container.

"I said I'm not hungry!" I shout. I breathe in heavily.

"That's fine... You don't need to eat, babe" Adam says with hurt in his voice.

"Adam, I'm sorry... I am just sick of being here."

"I understand... You're free tomorrow." He smiles faintly.

"Have you spoken to Zoe?" I ask, the room goes quiet once again...

"We'll leave you guys to talk, we'll be just outside" Monte speaks as him and Hayley leaves.

"No" Adam speaks subbornly.

"You need to... She is lost without you!"

"This is all her fault!" Adam yells with pain.

"No it's not! She didn't know Noah was going to do that!"

"She still brought him there!"

"Do you even know what happened? Why she really went to the church?" Adam stayed silent. "It was a cry for help, Adam!" I shout. "She tried to get away from Noah the whole three days she was gone! He took her phone, he wrote that message to you! She didn't even know what was going on. She was getting abused, she was afraid to speak up to him, she was scared and we weren't there for her! She flinched when I raised my arm to hug her. She is in distraught and you shutting her out and blaming her for this is not helping!"

"I-I didn't know.."

"She wouldn't even let Neil hug her or Monte! Monte and her were so close and now she won't let him even touch her shoulder!" A tear falls from Adam's face... "Forget what happended with me, I am fine and Noah is getting a severe punishment! Go and be with Zoe, Adam Lambert"

"I can't, I can't leave you here by yourself...Last time I left you-"

"Adam" I cut him off. "Baby, please, I'll be fine. I'll be with the band. Okay?" I smiled at him to reassure him.