Hell Above (Sequel To Heaven Below)

Chapter 33- Stopping Adam...

THIS CHAPTER WASN'T WHAT I KIND OF EXPECTED BUT I AM HAPPY WITH IT. I KNOW I PROMISED A HAPPY CHAPTER BUT IM SORRY :( IT WAS SO HARD TO WRITE THIS WITH MY TWO LITTLE THUMBS AT 3:30am SO I APOLOGISE IF IT IS SHORT AND IF THERE IS MISTAKES. I LOVE YOU ALL.

TOMMY
"Adam!" I screamed, he turned, tears running down his delicate face. "Please, step away from the edge, please" I pleaded. He simply ignored me and turned, moving forward a little.

"Even when I am smiling, I still want to die" He spoke softly and it hurt me to know this..

"Adam, we can talk about this, trust me"

"TALK ABOUT WHAT?" He screamed. Fear shot through my body... I know he would never hurt me... Would he? Why am I even questioning it? I know he wouldn't.

"Talk about you. I want to hold you and we can talk about this." I speak softly.

"So you can label me crazy again? Is that it?"

"No Adam, I never labelled you crazy. Why you I? You're my fiancé and I fucking love you." His eyes met mine, those dangerous eyes that made me lose focus in the world.

But what he did next, nearly gave me a heart attack, he turned his body to me and leaned forward. In an instance, my feet moved without a second thought, I caught his arm as he fell,

"Let me go, Thomas" He cried. "You will fall"

"Do not think for a second that I am going to let you go!" I yelled over the waves. "Please don't give in, I won't let you down" I felt his hand almost slip.

"Tommy... Please" He spoke trying to let himself go.
I heard other voices behind me and feet running to me, it was Neil and Dad.

"Adam!" Neil yelled. "Give me your hand" His voice almost broke.
I don't even know how Neil feels, he's grown up with Adam, he is Neil's whole world and to see his big brother ready to commit suicide, even my love and pain can't add up to what Neil and Dad are feeling.
Adam hesitated for awhile but grabbed Neil's hand, which led to him being brought up onto the edge of the cliff.
Monte, Hayley and Zoe were standing there. Zoe ran over to Adam, hugging him tightly. He went onto his knees and held her tight.

"Don't ever do that to us again!" Hayley yelled, half crying, half trying to be calm. Hugging Adam.
Adam stopped hugging everyone and stopped to look at me, he suddenly hugged me tightly, fresh tears left my eyes. With recent dramas, Adam and I haven't really had any moments to ourselves, and to have him just to hug me right now, just makes me, I can't even explain the feeling.

"I love you." He whispered softly, facing me. I smiled as my hand went through his hair.
He lent down and kissed my lips.

"Adam, what just happened tha-"

"I... I would rather not talk about it" Adam snapped, cutting Neil off.

"We are going to talk about it" Neil spoke sternly. Adam moved away from my body and stood over Neil. Hayley, Monte and Zoe stood back, not knowing what was to happen.

"I slipped, it happens" Adam nearly growls.

"How long has it been..?" Neil suddenly asked. "And I don't mean the relapses."

"Before I met Zoe" Adam says quietly, almost to himself, but sounding like a question.

"Why does it feel as if you're lying?" Neil spoke. At that moment, it felt like Adam had snapped.

"I'm not!" He yelled. He turned around to face all of us.. "Before I met any of you, I was dating Sauli... I was going and just beginning my teaching career... But then Sauli met Jakob, Noah's Dad... He was also a drug dealer... Sauli and I went to a gay club and he was there, that was the first time I had drugs..." Adam's voice trailed. "I got more addicted than what Sauli did, he urged me to try and quit but that would make me angry and I would leave to go see Jakob and get drunk and high on Ecstasy. I would often come home and Sauli would try and tell me it was wrong and I should stop, but then I again, would get angry.... One night I hit him... I regretted it after and I tried to stop... After that day I swore I would NEVER go back to drugs." Adam had fresh tears down his cheek. Hayley was crying and so was Zoe, but me, I was in shock.
I have been his partner for nearly a year and not ONCE has he mentioned this! Why had he not told me? Did he not trust me enough or was he too ashamed...?

"You kept this from me?" I suddenly spoke out loud without even thinking.

"I didn't mean to, I didn't know how to tell you.." His head dropped.

"We should all just head back to Adam's...It is late and I'm freezing." Dad spoke suddenly, breaking the awkward silence.

"Whose riding with me?" Monte asked.

"As long as I drive" Hayley laughed.

"Yeah, didn't feel like driving anyway" He quickly gave in.

"Hey, TJ, I know that you and Adam haven't really been alone for awhile but do you think it's okay if I ride with Adam, alone?" Zoe asked, glancing at me and then Adam.

"That's fine. I'll hitch with Monte" I smiled warmly at her. She hugged me before getting into Adam's car.

"I'll see you at home. I love you" Adam kissed me and went into his car and I went to Monte's where him and Hayley were arguing over their favourite type of burrito...

ADAM
"I know I can't be angry at you for not telling me" Zoe spoke as we drove away.

"You and everyone have every right to be angry. I shouldn't have kept it from you guys." I spoke. I felt ashamed..

"You needed time and I think that before anyone gets angry at you, they should think about you, about how it felt for you"

"I'm sorry I'm such a fool. I shouldn't have nearly jumped, Zoe"

"Dad" She spoke proudly when she said Dad. "Don't be sorry. You didn't die, so that's all that matters."

"I had Tommy there to stop me... What if he wasn't there? I was thinking about myself. I was selfish"

"You never were! Don't ever think that!!"

"I won't ever leave your side. I promise you that Zoe Ratliff Lambert. I'll be the father you want and I mean that"

"And I'll be the daughter you and Tommy want. I'll get the help I need. I promise and I'll never leave your side." She held my hand tightly...the car filled with a silence until she said her next sentence that made my heart stop. "I wish Sauli was here..."