Hell Above (Sequel To Heaven Below)

Chapter 24~Feeling Sick and Doctor Visits.

This one is kind of short as I kind of wanted it to be put into different chapters. I hope you guys enjoy this. <3

ZOE
I don't even know how to feel anymore. Everything is just crashing down around me again and it is hurting me but I know that MY actions also affect the people around me, Adam and Joel and even Tommy.

Sometimes we all follow a path to self-destruction because it makes us feel more alive than ever, makes us feel like we have an outlet to turn to when shit hits the fan- and when shit hits the fan I mean it really HITS THE FAN. In life people always say "Love is the only thing that you need to survive" but if this is true then why is it the only thing one goes without? We can't always put our trust in people- and that's the part where I fuck up.

Believing that I need someone to stand beside me and play the worlds smallest violin of sympathy. I craved that. Only to be let down one-by-one. Craving that sense of attention and love is what got me in this predicament in the first place- the predicament being a simple performance. Metaphorically speaking of course. This life is nothing but a performance and you're the star of the show, one little fuck up can ruin the rest of the performance.
But as they say "The show must go on" and that's how life is. You fuck up, but move on as if it never happened, but right now I can't move on from what has happened.
It is haunting me, a part of me believes that what had happened that night, was my fault, I had caused it and in a way it was my fault because I wanted to walk home late, but what has been said and done is in the past.

I walk to the bathroom, limping basically as my ribs are sore and doesn't allow me to do much without being in pain. I pulled my phone out to check the calendar...I'm late for my period...I'm never late for it.
I slide down to the floor as tears flood my eyes. What does this mean...? I have heard stories of women that are late for their period but...no...I can't be...surely...

I stand up, pushing all the bad thoughts to the back of my mind, I'll get it later, I'm sure of it.. I head downstairs to see Adam and Tommy chatting away on the lounge, Tommy sunggled up against Adam.

"Hey Adam, is it cool if I go out and see Joel today? I need to speak to him" I ask, he turns around and looks a little shocked, probably because I am out of bed and actually wanting to go out.

"Are you sure you want to go out? Are you feeling OK?" He asks softly, Tommy keeps he stare to the ground.

"I'll be fine..Not like it will happen a third time, hey" I say a little sarcastically.

"Just be home in a few hours, we have the band coming over for dinner and you and I need to have a talk, OK?" He spoke sternly. I nod my head and go back upstairs.

I get a pair of skinny jeans on and a belt as my legs are just too thin for them to be held up. I put on a MCR shirt and my black studded boots, I apply light eyeliner and mascara and put braclets on, covering my most recents. I bring my hair to the left side, covering my left eye with the brusie.
I leave my room and head back downstairs, I put my headphones through my shirt and plug them into my phone.

"Zoe, can you come here for a second?" Tommy asks as I walk past the lounge room, I walk over to him and he pulls out a small box. "A little something" He smiles, I open the box to see a braclet, it was silver with a heart, it had something engraved in it, 'Never Lose Hope' I smiled at it and hugged Tommy.

"Thank-you" I spoke, I put it on my wrist and left.

I'm lucky Adam didn't ask where Joel was, if he knew he was at school right now, he wouldn't of let me go. Adam doesn't want me going near the school, but I have been thinking about doing grade 11&12, but I haven't mentioned it as Adam would probably lose his shit..

The bell, signalling lunch is over goes off, everyone goes into their classrooms, leaving empty hallways. I hope I remember where my locker is..

I see him standing there, headphones in and just sitting against my locker. I stand in front of him, causing him to stand up.

"shit, Zoe, I thought you were a teacher" He laughs, pulling a heaphone out.

"Hey" I smile softly. He looks at me for awhile before holding my cheeks and pulling me into a kiss. It was so sudden yet it felt amazing. Fireworks went off in my head.

"I've been wanting to do that for a long time" He smirked, I laughed softly. "Come on, we'll go get food" He spoke, grabbing my hand, leading me out the school yard. "I thought Adam didn't want you near the school?" He asks, wrapping his arm around my shoulder.

"He doesn't" I reply staring at the ground as we walk. "I have been thinking about doing grade 11&12 but I know Adam wouldn't let me do it at that school" I sigh.

"I wouldn't blame him, Kylie has gotten worse."

"That's just her."

"How are you though after everything that has happened..?"

"I'd rather not talk about it, we'll just say I'm fine."

"Fine doesn't mean fine, Zoe" He spoke as we walked into a small little diner.

"It means fine to me." I spoke, looking around. This is the diner Adam and I went to after my father died...

I sat down at a booth while Joel ordered...My head felt dizzy, I could barely see in front of me..

"Are you OK? You're really pale.." Joel asked as he sat down

"I'm fine.." I speak, looking at my fingers. Even they became blurry...it's just me...

"Zoe, stop saying you're fine. You aren't fine." He spoke sternly.

"I'm fine!" I shout, people stare at us as I stand up. "I'm-I'm sorry" I speak before quickly walking outside.

"Zoe, wait!" I stop, my breathing becomes rapid and I struggle to hold my own weight up..what's wrong with me?

"Something's wrong with me, Joel." I cry as I face him, he comes forward in time to catch me.
"come on, I'm taking you to the doctors."

ADAM
"Adammmm!! Phone!" Tommy calls out from the kitchen, I quickly run in and grab my phone from the counter, answering it on instinct.

"Adam speaking" I say out of breath, dam I need to go excersise more..

"Adam, it's Joel." Worry runs through my head.

"Is everything OK?" I ask, pacing the hallway

"I'm at the doctors with Zoe, she had to get some blood tests done. Just get here and I'll explain." He speaks.

"Text me where you are and I'll be there straight away" I reply, hanging up the phone.

"What's wrong?" Tommy asks in confusion.

"Zoe is at the doctors, something happened. I need to go" I say, grabbing my keys.

"I'll stay here in case the band comes early. I love you" Tommy smiles as he kisses my lips softly.

"I love you way more" I smirk as I leave the house.

***
"Adam!" Joel yells across from the hallway in the doctors. I quickly run to him.

"Is she OK?" I puff. Joel leads me to a room where Zoe is laying with her back to the door. "Zoe." I speak softly. I walk to the other side to face her. Tears filled her eyes. "Hey baby" I smile softly. She stays silent but reaches for my hand.

A doctor comes in, clipboard in hand.
"You must be.." The doctor speaks.

"Adam, her father" I reply softly. The DR reads a few notes on the board before looking up again.

"Ms Campell, we have your test results back." Worry runs through my body as the words leave his mouth, but the worry turns into anger as he speaks again..