Hell Above (Sequel To Heaven Below)

Chapter 49~ I Guess This Is It...

It has been three days that Zoe has been in hospital, her condition has just gotten worse... It's all up to Adam... He hasn't see Tommy or the band in the past three days, it has been killing him but he hates being around Tommy while he's like this, he just wants to hold Tommy, to know he has his safety once again... He's like a newborn, vulnerable to the world with Tommy..

"Mr Lambert, it's time." The nurse spoke, Adam breathed in deeply as he walked into Zoe's room, it was early in the morning, 6;12am to be exact, no one was here to visit her yet. Neil comes at 6;30, has ever since that night. Neil now wants nothing to do with Adam... Not since Adam made up his mind about letting her go. Hayley apologised about snapping at Adam.

"Can I have a moment please?" Adam asked, the nurse nodded, shutting the door on her way out. She was the one who was going to turn the machines off.

Adam sat down next to Zoe... A single tear glided down his face.

"I know I've been tough on you lately, I know that you deserved nothing you have gotten recently.. I will miss you like the world though. When you leave, you're going to take a piece of my heart for the second time. I don't think I could ever forgive you for this, though... Some people think it's a selfish thing to do, to try and kill yourself, but when you think death is the only option to be happy, you cut out everything else away. You cut off the people that make you happy, because you tell yourself that they will leave you... Why didn't you tell me about you and Neil? I would of been mad at first, jesus Chris, I would've went after Neil, but after I saw how he was with you, it made me realise how happy you made each other.... Fucking hell Zoe, why did you do this? I need you, Neil needs you, we all needed you." Adam stopped to catch his breath, wiping away tears that flooded his eyes. "I don't really know what to do, they say you aren't getting better, you're getting worse... You're too fragile for surgery... They won't risk it... I love you. I fucking love you, baby girl."

"Nice speech." Neil's voice spoke softly. Adam turned to see his younger brother standing there. He looked like shit. "I only came to say goodbye."

"I will leave you alone." Adam sighed. As he got up. He passed Neil, he stopped Adam with one hand.

"Just think about what you're doing, Adam." Neil spoke in a low harsh tone, letting Adam walk off.

Neil sat down next to her bedside, fresh tears flowed from his eyes for the millionth time this past three days. He held her hand softly. All he longed for, was for her to squeeze his hand, let him know she's still there, alive. But he knew she was gone. The machines were the only thing keeping her heart beating, she couldn't breath on her own without them.

"This is hard for me to process, do you know that? It's so hard to grip onto the reality that you are gone, I keep wishing that you'd call me or text me, reminding me that all of this is just one big nightmare. I won't forgive Adam, I know that you would probably pester me about it, but what he is going to do is wrong. No one believes me when I say you're still there. No one..." Neil stands up. "And I don't know if I should believe it." He turns around, as he was about to leave, Adam and a nurse walked in.

"Neil, it's time." Adam spoke quietly, almost sympathetically. Neil mentally scoffed. He has no heart.

Neil left the room, ignoring his brother. He didn't want to be in the room when it happens. He wouldn't be able to handle it. He looked up to see his father and Monte walking towards him. Tears flowed freely once again.

Adam placed his hand in Zoe's... The nurse flicked a few switches, sending the machines beeping and going crazy. She flicked the switch of the biggest machine, the sound of a flat line filled the room.
Regret flushed through Adam. What if she is still there? Still with us? He gripped her hand tightly.
Her hand was getting colder now...
The door swung open to reveal a distraught Neil.

"Adam please, rethink this." He cried. But the grim look on Adam's face was enough. Neil knew it was too late. His eyes locked onto Zoe, and in that moment. Her heart beat for the very last time.

There was no coming back this time. She was gone and it scared Adam. He was petrified of losing her. His angel was gone. Again.

Tommy, Hayley, Eber And Monte walked into the room, Hayley burst into tears, falling into Monte's arms. Adam buried his head into Zoe's cold arm, crying. Neil, he couldn't stand straight.

"Bring her back!" He yelled loudly at the nurse. "please! Bring her back! She is still there!" Eber grabbed the young man, placing his arms around him. Neil suddenly broke down into tears. Tommy sat down next to Adam, tears streamed down his face. Adam lifted his head slowly, staring at his husband.

"Did I make a mistake?" He whispered, the words barely made it out.

"Adam, baby, you did what you had to." Tommy sighed, placing his arm around Adam, bringing him closer to him.

The nurse pulled the sheet over Zoe's face, leaving the room. No one dared to speak.
Adam stood up, kissing Zoe on her cheek. He walked away from her, towards Neil.

"Stay away from me" Neil snapped, moving away from Adam. "Don't ever come near me again."

"Neil, you know it's the best!" Adam spoke a little loud.

"For the best?" Neil yelled. "How is this for the best!?"

"It's what she wanted."

"No one wants to fucking die! She was scared." Neil cries, falling to his knees. Adam went to help him but he simply pushed him away. "Fuck off, Adam Lambert! You're not my brother. I hate you!" Neil screamed.

Adam stood back, walking backwards slowly. He looked around at everyone before walking out the room, down the corridor and towards the exit.

"Adam!" Tommy's voice echoed. Adam turned around to be embraced into his arms. "He didn't mean it, he's in distraught, baby, you know that."

"I love you."

"I love you too, Babyboy."

~~~~ Funeral ~~~~ (Song playing throughout this part is Everything's Alright by Laura Shigihara, even through the talking bits)

The weather was damp and cold, the trees seemed dull and lifeless. No one knew what to say or do.
Adam stood uneasy as the pastor started. He seemed to of zoned out. There was a lot of people here. Even when the weather is shit, they all made the effort to say their goodbyes.

"Adam, would you like to say something?" The pastor asked. Adam snapped out of his thoughts and looked up to see everyone looking at him. He slowly and carefully made his way up to the alter. It was placed were you could see her Coffin.

"I never thought I'd be here again... Not for the same person. Not for my daughter who has taken her life. The events of this disaster happened so quickly it scared me. The blood was overwhelming and I knew at the moment she wouldn't make it..." Everyone stared at Adam. His words seemed to go away in the air.
"It was my choice to cut her life support off. And it's my fault she's dead, it's my fault my brother hates me. He isn't here today, he knew he couldn't handle it. But Zoe was his love of his life. He is affected badly and I do wish he's okay... I hope she staring down at us, protecting us... I miss you."

A silence fell upon the crowd. Not even a bird singing was in the air. Adam got down from the alter, walking off from the cemetery.

-End of song-

Neil watched as everyone left the funeral, he watched as they got into their cars, driving off from her. She was nothing but a young girl decaying into the dirt.

He walked over towards her, sitting down crossed legged, not caring if his butt got wet from the grass. He placed a rose on her grave.

"I will never forgive him for this, Zoe. I love you" He spoke quietly.