Hell Above (Sequel To Heaven Below)

Chapter 43~ I Love You Mom.

HEY GLAMBERTS, REALLY SHORT ASS CHAPTER AND IT DRIFTED I THINK BUT I HOPE YOU LIKE. ❤️💖 BIG ADOMMY MOMENT NEXT CHAPTER.

"How could something like this just slip your mind, Tommy?" Adam spoke in a low tone, he didn't want it to cause an argument, but, he and Tommy both knew that it will just spiral into one either way.

"I have tried to forget it, Adam. I pushed it from my mind ever since I met you!" Tommy stopped pacing the bedroom and faced his beautiful husband... The most perfect man he knew, it scared him a little bit to know that he was soon going to have the family he had always wanted, a child on the way, a husband, successful career, everything seemed perfect, but, Tommy still felt as if anything could happen.

"I won't push this any further until you're ready to talk about it, just answer one question for me." Tommy nodded, fear trembled through his body. "If you were gay, why did you date and get engaged to Ashley?"
Ashley... Her name hasn't been talked about between Adam and Tommy alone... Not since her funeral.

"I was confused, I had told Ashley about my feelings, about who I really was, I knew I was gay, but whenever I talked to her, I didn't feel gay.... I told her about my feelings towards you, but Sauli was around so I did nothing, one night she told me how she felt about me and I kissed her... That's when we started dating but even then I couldn't convince myself that I was straight or bisexual, I was gay and I knew it."

"You were willing to live your life on a bed of lies?"

"No" Tommy sighed. "I told Ash how I felt and she told me that Sauli was going to propo-" Tommy quickly shut his mouth as years sprung from his eyes.

"He was going to propose?" Adam sat down, his face gone pale and his mouth hung open.

"Why do you care?" Tommy suddenly spoke in anger.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"We are married for fuck sake! I don't even understand why you would be so fucking upset over this! Are you not happy with me? I didn't chose this Adam Lambert, I didn't chose to fall in love with you! Every time you smile or have that glint in your eye when you walk into a room, I fall hopelessly in love with you!! Am I just a toy to you? I am having your child!" Tommy yelled suddenly.

"I never said that I didn't love you! You're not my toy, you're my husband and I am so happy that we are having a little bundle of joy, Thomas Joesph Ratliff, I would never leave your side, I would never ever." Adam spoke from his heart.

"Then why make this so fucking hard?" Tommy yelled. "Why do you keep acting as if he's still alive?"

"That's not fair" Adam frowned, Tommy stood at the doorway.

"No, Adam, what's not fair is how you're getting so angry over me not telling you about what happened in my past, yet, you're the one keeping shit from me in YOUR past, to make matters worse, when you were faced with someone from your bad past, you nearly killed yourself!!" Tommy's eyes were red and puffy. "I'm sleeping on the lounge tonight, don't follow me, Adam" before Adam could protest, Tommy was gone.

Adam felt terrible, he hated arguing with Tommy, all they seem to do is argue lately, they haven't say down and talked about baby names like new parents should. Adam didn't understand why they can't talk civilly anymore...

As Zoe finished writing song lyrics, there was a knock at her door.

"Come in" She yelled softly, quickly shoving her song book under her pillow. Adam walked in, shutting the door behind him. "Dad, look, I'm sorry about earlier with Tommy, it was stupid of me." Zoe spoke softly, Adam say next to her.

"I'm not here to talk about that, I want to talk to you about school." Adam sighed, he knew Tommy was right, he knew he was too attached to the past... "I want you to go, I want you to be happy and if going to school is something that'll make you happy, then I won't stop you, you're nearly 18, you need to be a teenager." Adam stopped talking once he felt Zoe's arms wrap around him.
There was no words spoken, none were needed, Zoe hasn't hugged or even been this close to Adam in so long. Adam felt Zoe's grip tighten and felt her tears drop onto his shirt.

"I'm so sorry." Zoe cried softly, she pulled away from Adam, wiping her eyes. "I'm sorry I blamed you"

"Don't worry sweetheart." He smiled. "Get some rest, big day tomorrow"

As Tommy heard Adam's footsteps come past the sofa, he pretended to be asleep, he felt a blanket go around him, followed by a kiss on the cheek, Adam was always like that, after every fight, he always did something adorable for Tommy.
Tommy thought Adam would go back upstairs, but, instead he walked out the front door, Tommy say up as he heard the screeching tires of his car.
Where was he going...?

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"I miss you so much, I have so much I want to tell you" Adam spoke softly and quietly. "Tommy and I got married, I was so happy, it didn't go as I wanted though, Zoe wasn't there and Tommy got shot while protecting me... Everything's better now though, Tommy and I are even expecting a baby... I know, it's hard to believe... I'm sorry I haven't visited in so long, so much has happened lately... Tommy and I are constantly arguing over everything, it kills me each time we argue because I love him... He means the world to me, I would do anything for him, to protect him and the baby." Adam wiped tears from his cheek as he inhaled deeply. "As much as it tears me apart, I'm letting Zoe go back to school to complete year 11 and 12... I just don't want the same thing to happen to her... I'm just paranoid." Adam stood up. "I've got to go, I love you Mom. Forever and always." He smile, placing a single rose on top of her grave.