𝘸𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘴

𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘯

𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘭𝘭

It wasn't a dream

Yesterday night wasn't a dream? Him leaning forward to open my door, me kissing his lips him pulling away. God I'm such an idiot.

I sat up in bed running my hands through my messy bed hair. I fucking embarrassed myself in front of the hottest man I've went on a date on.

I didn't really change out of my pjs today, I wore my oversized crew neck sweater and some booty shorts. I grabbed my glasses actually wearing them for once. I usually never wear my glasses, I just simply forget, I don't have that bad of a vision I just suck at seeing from far away. Anyway that is not the point. The point is that I kissed Nico. On "accident"ish, I completely miss read his stupid signs and kept thinking about his lips on mine. What idiot does this?

I went down the stairs to the kitchen making myself some coffee and French toast before I started my day of painting.

My mind couldn't help but think about the embarrassing situation I was in, but my thoughts got completely interrupted by my phone ringing obnoxiously loud. Logan.

"Spill" she said already wanting to know why I ditched her last night.

"Hello to you too" I mumbled softly taking a sip of my warm coffee.

"Bonjour bitch, now spill your guts I want to know about the date while I can"

"Logan I really like him! I really like him but I'm a fool! An idiot!" I groan loudly, the last thing I expected was for me to fall for someone and make a stupid decision the same night.

"Why? Tell me!" She yelled loudly "sorry-um-Ricky stop touching the iv-why do we really like him?"

"So we went to dinner, talked and talked and talked, we stared at each other. I mostly stared at him cause he's so hot, who won't stare at him? Anyway, he paid, which was pretty annoying cause I wanted to pay but I just paid for tip. Then, he got up and we both held hands as we walked to the car, we had small talk, I stared at him some more. Here's the best part, I kissed him."

"Kenny you have to give me details this is amazing!"

"Not amazing at all! He went to open my door and I kissed him completely catching him off guard! He pulled away almost immediately. You know how horrible this is! He probably thinks of me as an idiot girl who kissed him without him knowing"

"Oh god Kenny, that is-shit! Patient 256 is coding! I'll call you later!" The line went dead. I sighed and touched my lips, I closed my eyes wanting to literally go dig myself a grave to sleep in the rest of my life.

I went to my art room needing to destress, from today forward I won't be able to talk to him because I embarrassed myself terribly! It doesn't help that he's my neighbor.

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I painted all day, ate some snacks but I painted all day. I painted some portraits of what came to mind, it was mainly contour lines, it's what my mind felt.

I went back to my room snuggling up into my bed, opening my phone to scroll on my Instagram explore page, when I saw 3 miss calls from Nico and a few texts from him. I read the texts they all said hello? Can we talk? Kendall? R u okay? Hello? Kendall?

I know I should respond back. Instead I turned on the tv in my room letting Gilmore Girls play. I finally forgot about last night, that was until my phone started buzzing. The name of the caller ID read in big letters NICO, NICK, NICOLAS. Oh god.

I didn't want to pick up, I couldn't I was too embarrassed.I turned my phone over hugging my pillow as I continued watching the show.

My phone wouldn't stop buzzing, it was never ending. I grabbed my phone seeing the 9 other miss calls from Nico and the 15 messages from him. Shit.

I opened the chat,

Nico: Kendall, I know you saw this.
Nico: answer.
Nico: can we talk?
20 minutes later
Nico: Kendall, r u at least alive?
Nico: hello?
Nico: hello?
Nico: Kendall.
40 minutes later
Nico: I know you're ignoring me
Nico: Kendall
Nico: hello?
Nico: I've called many times
Nico: r u ok?
Nico: I need to speak with you
30 minutes later
Nico: Kendall
Nico: I know you see this

I have to respond.

Kendall:I'm fine, I have work tomorrow, Goodnight.

I turn off my phone placing it on my night stand to charge. I even got up to turn off the light to actually go to sleep. I really can't deal with this right now, especially after yesterday.