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     "Mr. Devon, you haven't revised the paper work I sent in last week" i sighed to myself knowing that I was behind with many things.

      "I'll look over it today, I have leave," I walked into the elevator "Pamela, send me an email on everything I have to get done today for work." She nodded and was about to say something but the elevator doors shut.

I let out a deep breath feeling a bunch of bottle up emotions in me. Mostly anger and sadness. It was as if I was about to explode.

I closed my eyes thinking about what Carmen said to me about the letter.

Two weeks ago

She was speechless.

       What was she thinking? Did it make sense...what I was feeling? Did she understand?

       I noticed that she straightened her back out and she blinked a few times, making the tears go away.

       "That was a very beautiful letter Nicolas" she sighed softly and crossed her legs. "Sorry, it was also a very emotional letter. Nicolas, this is my opinion, take it or leave it but she needs to read this. It's the only way she knows your true feelings towards her. I know you are going through it but imagine what she's going through as well. Give her time. Let her process everything, give yourself time. I know you want her back but you ran into a speed bump and you need to step back before you make things worse for yourself and for her. I know everything is getting dark again, but you have to keep going. Once you are ready and can control your emotions you can send her the letter or at least try to. You are a good person-"

      "Im not a good person"

     "You are, You just don't allow yourself to see it. Take things slow. A break might be a good thing. Give this to her when you're ready" she was right. I know she is, I just can't accept the fact that I have to leave her. I don't want to leave her. "This won't end unless you don't put in your part. Time and space. Release some steam. Okay?"

       I stared at the ground running my hand through my hair. "Yeah, yeah i know, I should-thank you Carmen, I'll um see you next week"

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       Just some space. It's been 4 weeks since we broke up.  I stepped out of the elevator walking towards the exit of my building. A i heard a few workers walk quickly towards me ready to ask questions. I swiftly turn around making them stop in their tracks.

      "Mr. Devon-"  I shot them all a glare and huffed.

      "Does it look like I'm walking towards my office?"they all shook their head "okay then leave me alone and go do your job, I want papers all delivered to my office, I do prefer it all to be emailed. Leave" i spun my heel around 50 degrees and continued walking towards the exit.

       I was ready to just bash someone's head into cement right now. I pushed the door open already seeing valet holding out the key to my car in front of my car.

       "Thank you" I muttered grabbing the keys from his hand. I don't understand why the sky had to be blue today. Why the sun was out? It's nicer when the sky is cloudy. It's calming. I sat in my car slamming the door next to me.

       I needed to release steam. I need to release a lot of steam actually. That means going to the gym. I need to torture my body to feel better. That's how it works. That's how I work.

I drove home at the speed limit this time, I honestly had no choice, there was traffic. I didn't want to stay home for long, it was a quick change before I continued with my day.