A Lover To Him

Chapter Thirteen, Walking away from another mistake

I would do anything to turn back the time to make sure I wouldn't say something I didn't want to say. I can't help blurt things out, and normally, I wouldn't make such a big deal about it, but this time it's different. I fucking told him I hold hope for a future between us, but I know it's never going to happen. I think we weren't meant to be together for each other. 

Nevertheless, I blurted out that I have hope for a happy ending, and I didn't want him to know this. I know he'll start asking for a second chance even though he said he wouldn't, but I can't give him one. I can't give the guy that broke my heart a second chance. 

I feel like if I grant him a second chance, I will justify that what he did six years ago is alright, but it isn't. It is far from right to leave the girl you like behind and disappear to god know's where without even having a normal conversation about the decision. These things require a conversation that goes both ways, instead of a short note. 

I know we'll only destroy each other again, and I know perfectly well that I have to start distancing myself before I fall for him again. I might like being in his presence and having him around me might bring some sort of peace and comfort to me, but I can't permit myself to fall for him again. 

I have to distance myself from him, and it was supposed to be a lot easier, but he has the tendency to show up wherever I am. It shouldn't be a problem, but he somehow gets me to talk to him every time, and then all of my plans of distancing myself fail tremendously.

If I distance myself from him, I won't be able to fall for him. Then, I can rid of whatever emotion I already feel for him and start over with someone else. Then, I can put all of this in the past and never think of it again, just like it never happened. 

I wait for Caine to start talking about this deal Dr. Lee was talking about, but he doesn't seem to be so hasty to enlighten me. He gives me a meaningful look, but I have no clue what the look is supposed to mean. He looks away before he opens his mouth to enlighten me. 

"As I discussed with Dr. Lee a couple of minutes ago, I want to seal a deal with this hospital in honor of my quick recovery here. I want to hold a gala here to honor this hospital for my recovery. It would have a lot of beneficial advantages for this hospital, among other things, it would help you to find new sponsors and shareholders. It would also give you good publicity." He talks in a very formal tone, and I can see that he has a lot of potential as a businessman. 

"That sounds good, but what does it have to do with me? I mean, why do I have to be in this office to discuss these sorts of things when they're not even decisions I get to make. With all due respect, I'm just a nurse here." I say politely, not understanding what the fuck this deal has to do with me. 

Caine gives me a short glare and clears his throat. I sit uncomfortably in my chair as I wait for Dr. Lee or Caine to explain why I was supposed to meet them in this office when they're talking about deals that require the attention of my boss. 

"I also want to invest in the renovation of one floor in this hospital, and I would like to dedicate the new floor to the one person that helped me recover so quickly. I would want to give the person the honor of having the floor named after themselves." Caine says, making me shoot him a confused glare. 

"And who might that be? It sounds like it would be a huge honor to be the chosen person." I ask, not knowing what to say otherwise. I still don't get what this all has to do with me. It's a huge honor for the chosen person, but this still doesn't enlighten me on what I'm doing in this office. 

"I want to name the renovated floor after you, Miss. White. You have successfully helped me a lot to recover as quickly as possible, and I want to thank you for that. If you would let me, I would like to name the floor Mia White." He says, making me look at him in shock.