A Lover To Him

Chapter Thirty-two, I need release

Strong sexual content ahead, along with mentioning of sex.

This is marked as mature content.

I kiss his lips again, pulling him closer to me. I need to feel him, feel his touch on my skin as he kissed me with those plumb lips. He kisses me with adoration and passion, I could feel the emotions in our kiss now that all of the walls and borders between us were gone. We made them disappear, making sure the barrier between us – one that was filled with unsaid things and emotions we kept to ourselves – crumbled down.

I wasn't sure what had taken us so long to make sure the barrier was completely gone. Even when we were together in high school there was this little barrier between us, a thin, almost unnoticeable one, but it was there. It was filled with secrets and unsaid things, and it took us almost six and a half years to make sure it was gone.

It had taken us years even though we trusted each other wholeheartedly, almost blindly. Maybe, we weren't ready for everything back then. We were young and ignorant on this thing called love that was something incomprehensible and complicated for us. We weren't ready to open up entirely to one another, trusting each other with all our dreams, fears, and secrets. We kept things hidden, and somewhere deep inside me, I think it is what made our relationship complicated. Aside from the fact, Caine hid his entire world hidden from me to keep me safe.

Now, we're older and wiser, we had seen more of the world than six years ago. We're both ready for this, we're both ready to make this work. At least, I know Caine is, I'm still not so sure if I'm ready to dive into this relationship. Something inside of me still holds onto the fear of losing him again, experiencing an even more heartwrenching heartbreak. Something still inside of me tells me that there's no point in holding hope for all of this because it was a complete mess.

I know I need time to think about this, and he knows it too. He knows me well enough after all those years to realize I need to think clearly about all of this when I'm alone. He knows I need to let my mind wander about these things and decide after I'm sure what I wanted and needed. Sometimes, it was scary how well he still knows me after all those years.

"Mia, I swear, you have no clue what kind of thoughts are running through my mind right now. You have no clue, mon amour." Caine whispers, distancing himself a little as he looked at me with his beautiful eyes. They shine with adoration and admiration, they look at me in a way no one else looks at me.

Like I am the only thing that matters in the world.

No one had ever looked at me like that, like I was the only thing that matters to them, like there was no one else for them. As Rihanna said, he makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world for him, and it makes me feel so special and unique. He loves me, all of me. He loves my flaws and problems, he loves my troubles and worries. He loves every little single thing about me, and I love him in the same way.

"Dirty thoughts, I suppose," I say, giving him a seductive wink as a little smirk tucks the corners of my lips. Caine raises his eyebrows in surprisingness, but I see the glint of wickedness and lust in his eyes. Oh, I had guessed right. Wicked thoughts crossed his mind a minute ago, and I couldn't deny the fact that I secretly wanted to be wicked and daring tonight.

"You mean the ones where I make you cum on my dick as you scream out my name in intense pleasure? Those thoughts are dirty indeed, but what can I say? I'm not an innocent one." He tells me, a wicked smirk growing on his lips as he glances quickly at the bathroom in the back of the ice cream parlor, almost as if he was giving me a hint.

I crash my lips onto his again, our lips moving slowly against each other. Sharing passion and desire together as our tongues run smoothly against each other. His lips were soft against mine, but they captured my lips with dominance and lust. The kind of dominance that makes my pussy wet my panties and ask for attention, and I secretly love every bit of it.