love is strange

13

School has been harder to focus than usual with me and kian. we've been talking a lot more in front of everyone.

It's been three weeks since our first date. We've had two more, just movie dates.

"Has he asked you yet?" Allison asks me during robotics. I screw in a locknut

"Asked me what" I say

She smiles "asked you to be his girlfriend duh" she says in a dumb voice making me laugh

"Ya right ally"

I get a weird sensation in my stomach. "mr mark may I use the restroom" I say running up to him "uh shu-" before he can finish I run out the door down the hall and to the nearest bathroom.

I stand over the toilet and feel my lunch come up.

"Ewww" I say to myself.

I feel sweaty but cold and my stomachs cramping.

I walk to the nurse and tell her I just threw up. she calls my mom to notify her. I get the rest of my work and go to my car.

At home I sit and watch preachers daughters. it calms my stomach at least till my mom comes home.

At 3:00, 3:45 and 4:30 I've thrown up so far. when a food commercial comes on tv I feel nauseous.

Jaz and ray went back to college after break, so Vivian will be home first, then lily and chase, then my mom and D.

When they all get home mom tries to make me some soup but I turn it down and go upstairs. I feel weird, so I go over the events that happened that night.

Ok arriving, drinking, dancing, oh god no. drunk sex. fuck fuck fuck.

I start to panic and do circles around my room. "how could this happen to me" I whisper.

I stand still "ok Nani it's not confirmed yet, stop panicking." I sit on my bed and wonder where I can get one.

I act really sick the whole night so my mom can let me skip tomorrow. she finally gives in and then makes me go to bed.

I whip out my phone and text Allison

We have a problem

I send it and do my best to fall asleep, which dosent work too well.

In the morning everyone leaves, lily chase Vivian all go to school, mom goes to work, dropping D at daycare.

Once they are all gone and I'm in the clear, I sneak to my car again feeling woozy.

I drive to the nearest drugstore. I run inside and pick up at least five tests.

At home I run inside and open the box reading the directions.
Open packaging, take off wrapper off tip, pee, wait.

Sounds easy enough.

I am shaking while peeing. I set it on my paper towel and sink onto the floor waiting for five minutes. I'm shaking and sweating. I can't be pregnant.

I stand when the timer goes off. if red, not, if blue, congrats honey your gonna be a mommy.

I check the stick breathing in and out carefully.