🌟Reach for the stars 🌟|| Kaimaki || Danganronpa

Chapter 31 - I did it, its done.

Maki's POV:

Hello.

I would say "I woke up" but I didn't sleep.

I couldn't.

Today I have to, assassinate Saihara, I'm heavily unprepared mentally

Sure I have everything I need, but in my mind, I just can't do it.

I've killed and injured multiple times, never having a second thought.

Yet it's different.

It's someone I know.

In fact, he's one of my "best friends"

So, what am I supposed to do?

Just act numb again and pretend it's nothing?

I can't do that! I just can't!

Now that I'm experiencing emotions again, it's hard to put them away again

And, I don't want to..

I'm...scared..scared the others will find out.

Then my class would really never trust me again..

I can't have anyone find out.

Especially Momota and Akamatsu

They'll think that I did it without a second thought. And that i'd do the same if it were them.

But...that's not true.

I'm having all of these second thoughts, not to mention if it was killing, I'd rather kill myself then kill one of them.

...

Guess I am attached.

Thinking about killing myself for someone

This is the first time..

I want to fight back..

Not do it.

Tell them no.

But..

I can't..

"I just can't.." I said out loud, my eyes felt a familiar burning sensation

What's this?

My eyes feel so...watery..?

Water fogged up my vision as I blinked, it all released, falling down from my eyes..

Crying..

I was crying..

The last time I did that was...

When I was in assassin training..I remember crying every night until I couldn't anymore.

I didn't think it would happen again,  I guess I expected to feel numb forever

Tears fell down as I stumbled to the ground on my knees and clenched my stomach

I sobbed hysterically.

I'm not even sure why.

I can't tell if it's really because I have to injure a friend.

Or if it's because I'm still hurting from everything that's happened this week.

All of the neglection from Momota...