sᴇʟғɪsʜ~ʟᴇɢᴀᴄɪᴇs {slow updates}

TWENTY

School was out for the summer and it completely sucked, mom was supposed to take Kiara and I to Greece like she did every year only I decided to stay behind this time because Thomas was invited too. Now don't get me wrong I loved Thomas and I was happy for him and my sister but I really did not feel like being a third wheel again.

Lizzie went to Europe with aunt care and Josie was home basically babysitting her dad. MG went home with Kaleb, Jed had gone home for the summer, rafael my sort of boyfriend was stuck as a wolf and Landon and I weren't that close. I mean we spent time together I guess sitting with Raf and I occasionally joined the movie nights so maybe things weren't so bad after all.

I don't know what was really wrong but I just felt like something was missing because things didn't make sense to me, I don't remember why Rafael and I weren't working out before he turned to a wolf. I don't remember why I cared so much about Landon even though I barely knew him. I just felt like there was a huge gap that I wasn't sure how to fill?

"Hey have you fed Raf today?" I ask Landon knowing it was nearing five and that was the time he usually liked being fed. "Uh no but I'm about to if you wanna join?" I think it over and shake my head, "nah it's fine go have your bro time or whatever." I say before going to my room. Hanging with Raf didn't even feel the same anymore he'd been slowly distancing himself. I think it's because the longer he stayed a wolf the less human he was becoming but it's not like I could really do anything about that anyways.

Since mom, Kiara and basically everyone had left for summer I felt like this was the perfect opportunity to research my dad. Especially since uncle Ric wasn't even here anymore. I packed my bag with the books I was using for research and headed into town.

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"Arabella?" I slam my book shut once I see my uncle approaching. "What are you reading?" He asks perplexed by my reaction. "Oh uh fifty shades of grey ?" No! Why would I say that? "oh in public? You're bold." I have never wanted to die like I did right now. "Yeah not a good book, I'm gonna throw it away." I say throwing it into my bag. I had no one to blame but myself for this.

"Um can we just forget that I said that?" I ask making him nod, "already forgotten, hey you wanna go get ice cream like old times?" I shrug I guess I didn't really have anything else to do.

"So..."

"I'm sorry you're not headmaster anymore, if I would've been in on the vote I would've voted for you to stay. I know mom would've too." He smiles sadly, "I appreciate it kiddo so how come you didn't go away for summer, is everything ok?"

"Yeah I guess, I just didn't wanna be a third wheel with Kai and Thomas, you know?"

"Because of raf being stuck as a wolf, is it too painful for you?" He asks making me shake my head, "no I don't remember why but Raf and I, we weren't doing so well before, he was never really my boyfriend. I don't know if I'm ready to be dating to be honest, or if there even is someone out there for me."

"Don't say that, of course there's someone out there for you, but don't put so much pressure on yourself you're still young." He says and I nod, "thanks uncle Ric."

"Oh uh I've got to go meet josie, you don't mind do you?" He says suddenly after checking the time, "no no, it's cool I'll see you later I'll just-"

"Finish your book?" He teases making me groan, I was never gonna live this down.

I decide to leave the ice cream store and just walk around mystic falls not really sure where I was going yet. "Oh my god I'm so sorry." Of course I had to have bumped into someone because I wasn't paying attention to myself and where I was walking.