In My Blood (En- JakeHoon)

IX

After the two spoke with each other, Jay was still in shock. The guilt of not knowing sooner was evident when he remembers the time he called Sunghoon in the room.

"Don't blame yourself. . what you did helped. . . but still, even if his wife is dead, I still cannot take that like a chance. . what happened to him was so tragic. . "

"Everyone has their own tragedy. . . it's up to us if we want to keep it that way or look for our own happy ending. . ."

Jake smiled at his friend as he nodded before the pair enters the dining room where Jake again saw his mate with his son as he happily feed him. He wonders how the baby has a bigger appetite than he does.

Sunghoon was whipped towards how his son reacts to another spoonful of porridge making him want to keep feeding him.

"Son . . I think Sunoo had enough porridge already. . "

Sunghoon just laughed before looking at Sunoo who is anticipating another spoonful.

"I think that's enough for breakfast Sunshine. . ."

He took the cup of warm water before giving to his son indicating that breakfast is over.

Jake on the other hand just admires them from afar wondering if he could even be good enough to sit beside those beautiful creatures without feeling out of placed.

Jake has always felt insecure of how he look and how he grew up with his parents telling him to loose weight made it worse. He grew up developing an eating disorder where he eats a little as he thought he looked fat and in the end made him skinny.

The first time he eats a lot is when he woke up in Jay's mansion but other than that, he wants to eat little as possible.

Jay always comments about it and tell him honestly how skinny he looked but maybe Jake is still adjusting.

Jake left to his room as he face the mirror feeling dissatisfied.

When he saw his mate a while ago, in the light, he felt insecure on his skin color. his height, his face, his hair, even his voice made him feel bad to he beside his mate.

"Should I use those whitening creams I saw the humans use? . . . should I also take those height increasing pills? .. Or should I use those hair products? . . . wait, why will I bother? I stand no chance. . Plus his son might not even like me"

He wiped the tears that fall on his cheek as he smiled in pity at his reflection.

"I guess I can just deal with this until I die"

He stepped out his room just in time for Sunghoon to close the door to their own room. They manage to lock eyes before Jake immediately look down.

"Ah . . I forgot one important detail. . . my mate hates wolves. . "

Jake slowly walks away with a heavy heart with the realization.

Sunghoon on the other hand felt a pang of guilt in his heart as Jake exits to the living room. He's confused as to why Jake is acting that hurt. Is he really that offended that Sunghoon tried to attack him? How much sensitive is he that he literally have the most painful gaze Sunghoon has ever seen?

"I guess he's not used to someone not liking him" Sunghoon thought to himself before going to the kitchen to quench his thirst.

Opening the blood bag, Sunghoon poured himself a glassful as he began to now think about his and his family's future.

He cannot always rely on Jay for support although he is aware that Jay will give them the support they need.

"I guess I will speak with Jay tomorrow. Maybe he can help me get a job or something"