In My Blood (En- JakeHoon)

40 (FINAL)

(This story is supposed to end chapters ago but I don't know why I cannot end it. Maybe because I don't want to but this is it. . it is ending here. This is suppose to end after Jake has been made a member of Riki's pack but I want to mess up so I added more. I hope you liked it. THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE!!! For all of your votes, reads and comments, thank you so much. I hope you enjoyed this story that is now closing its last page. I love you all and see you in my next stories........)

Sunghoon

It is a surprise to us when the next morning we woke up, Riki declared that Jungwon is safe now and Heeseung hyung is suddenly in front of us and his appearance changed tremendously. He looks older and thinner and his hair is clearly not in the right place. Although he still look stunning, I can tell that he's not being cared well to wherever he was placed to.

Jay is really mad when he got out of his room and saw Heeseung in that state and after learning about what has been happening with Jungwon. I cannot even open my mouth last morning because I'm scared that a wrong word can literally make Jay kill someone. I mean, I don't blame him.

I've seen how he searched non stop for a long time of any news about Heeseung and Jungwon but he couldn't because they're literally hidden in plain sight. They can be disguised as dead and no one would even notice them. Even Riki tried to track them through his travels in packs but he couldn't because they're literally in prison and none of us thought they would be living there.

Sunoo also got somewhat mad at me because I lied to him before saying that Jungwon is doing fine when in reality, I don't even know myself.

Heeseung and Jungwon finally got united with Jay who looks mad still. I think things between the three of them are still not settled well.

I am currently in my room as I wait for Jake to finish showering as we're going on a date. Not to mention today is his birthday. I know it is not right that we celebrate when everyone around us is in chaos but Jay said we should not burden ourselves with them as they can handle themselves and even if I want to give a hand, I don't exactly know what kind of help I will give them or how can I help them when I'm clueless of the situation.

Jake enlightened me a little before but it isn't enough for me to know how to help.

For now, what I can do is to not add to their burden and not be a problem and I will do that by not doing anything to make them worry about us. I have faith in Jay that he can find a way for this, he always has.

When Jake entered the room, I immediately sniff the air and I know what that is.

"Jaeyun?"

"I'm fine . . ."

"Is it the time of the year? Goodness you're hot"

"I'm sorry, I think we should postpone the date . . ."

"Come here . . . let us cool you down. ."

He's so sweaty so I grab some cloth and place some ice in it before placing it on his forehead. I then place my hand on his chest as my other hand turned off the heater and blast off the air conditioner to the lowest degree. He needs to cool down.

"Relax Jaeyun . . . just close your eyes. Let sleep claim you first then it will go away. . . "

It took me some time to learn the trick to help him with his heat. I can't just you know, take him every time he's in heat. He slowly took deep breathes and his shaking slowly subsides. I smiled as I saw how he is slowly calming down. But just as I am relaxing, his eyes immediately opened and his grip tightens on my hand.

"Jaeyun? What's going on?"

"I'm fine . . . "

Goodness me.

His body is slowly getting used to my ice as time passed by and is responding beautifully whenever he's in heat and I cool him down. It takes years to master but it is worth it. Besides I don't want him to always suffer without his choice.

"Is Jake alright?"

"Hmm. . . he'll be fine. Once this is over, he will take over"

"But I want to be with you too. . . "

"What? Don't you want Jake?"

"I do . . but Jaeyun, you're also a part of the wolf I love. . do you mean to say you don't feel like I love you?"

"No. . I thought that you only want Jake not me because my form is huge"

"Hey . .I didn't just love Jake. I also love you. .and it makes me sad whenever I talk to you and you avoid me. Even Jake has no idea why you're avoiding me"

"I am just thinking that maybe I'm not important"

"Why wouldn't you be important? Baby, you're my wolf and I love you. don't think that way because that's not true. . . you're not less important to me. Why didn't you tell me how you are feeling all this time? I could've done something"

"I'm sorry,. . . ."

"Ok, next time be more open to me and Jake yes? You're precious to me, and to our kids. ."

He smiled as tears rolled down his cheeks.

I can't imagine I made Jaeyun feel that way . I thought I'm doing fine and yet, I lack in some aspects.

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It is funny how we both started in a path where we don't know where to go but managed to find each other along the way. When we found each other, we're both in the phase of having no choice. I have no choice but to continue to live even if my wife just died. Jake has no choice but to live even if he clearly does not have the means to. But we both made a choice. The choice we made changed our lives forever and without a doubt, made us even happier than we could ever imagine.

I will never be proud of my past self but I am proud of where I have grown and to where I am now.

I cannot change anything in the past because it is already done but I chose to make my present better for my future. No matter how much I hated wolves before, I chose Jake and that choice I made gave me this future I have now.

I cannot change the past but my past showed me how to polish my future.

As we grow together, I will make sure that our future together will be filled with happiness and peace and love. We will still have arguments but we will make the most of it and learn from it.

This is Park Sunghoon signing off.

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